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and now im fucking worried about him.alarms went off in my head, thats a red flag
Bestie-
and now im fucking worried about him.alarms went off in my head, thats a red flag
hey hey,, its ok to feel alone ok?i feel so lonely but my sisters are home, my grandparents are here, i'm talking to my friends and my s/o but i just feel so alone and i just fuck
I’m alone rn, just watching a moviei feel so lonely but my sisters are home, my grandparents are here, i'm talking to my friends and my s/o but i just feel so alone and i just fuck
i decided to get smt to eat even tho i wasn't hungry so i just got rice nd gravy, my lil brother nd step-mom said "why do you have a full place of rice?" "shes going to be fat. fat girls like cake" like one, leave me alone i wasn't hungry ok? you constantly telling me "your fat" i already am self-conscious about my body and already dont like it because i look fat and pregnant and you telling me im fat is not helping. im already fucking stress with school and my fucking "birth giver" wants me to get good grades and i can't do that its stressing me out.
i was only clean for like a few days now im fucking not and im fucking disappointed in myself even more and i hate myself. i don't want to be here. i dont want to be in this world. i dont want to be in this house i just want to disappear.
i feel like everyone hates me and thats fine i would hate me too...pretending to be okay is so fucking exhausting mentally and physically.
bestie im here if you need or want to vent or rant ok?ISTFG I HATE IT HERE. I CAN'T FUCKING FOCUS FOR SHIT AND I'M FAILING THREE FUCKING CLASSES. IT'S ONLY BEEN A DAMN MONTH OF SCHOOL AND I'M ALREADY MAKING IT BACK INTO THIS DARK FUCKING SPACE. I just, I can't, I'm not okay mentally, physically, emotionally, I'm not okay. But my mom isn't willing to let me get help so I'm just in this alone, it feels like./SPOILER]
i'm sorry, genuinely. if you wanna talk, i'm always open!School is deteriorating my mental health. It is 8 am on a MONDAY and I've already cried 3 times. I'm failing three classes, passing one main class, and passing my related arts. It's all just too much, but if I don't do better my mom will fuck me over again
hello! you matter to me. you might think i’m lying to cheer you up but i promise. i care about you. i love you and if anything happened i would be so sad.i hate her. i want to hate her i honestly do but i can't and i hate myself more because i know what we're doing isn't right it never was but i want to be with her even if we're not together and i fucking hate it. i like him but hes taken. i like her but she like someone else. honestly whats the fucking point in this? my family treats me like im a fucking stranger, the school is stressing me out, i feel left out and not important but that doesn't matter right? Im just the fucking person who acts like "everything is a-okay but im not but its not like what i say fucking matter right?
i never matter to anyone......i don't want to be here anymore.....i don't see the point..