I just finished my last closing shift I have to do for my training, don't get me wrong I am really happy I have a job, my savings account went from 0 to $832 with my first paycheck since 2024. I'm truthfully really really grateful for the chance, as when MONSTA X or Wonho (whoever comes first to canada), I wanted to get ultimate VIP anyway, and I'll have my new phone from then as my first phone upgrade in six years which aka means a better camera for fancams
But for me, these last six days have been hard, I've been with negative people for a majority of my life, the one training me I don't believe is a bad person, but I've tried to throw in silly jokes, try to connect with them, yet it just seems like a failure, I made her smile once though which was nice. I just don't understand how every day you can find something so negative to focus on, she has so many great things going on, and it just seems like she only focuses on the negatives?
Part of me wonders if she just didn't like me, even though she really doesn't know me that well, she's very standoff ish and honestly kinda scary, I've been doing my best to pay attention and memorize stuff but I quiet literally have issues with my memory, if I do something wrong tell me and I can change it, don't watch me do something wrong and come back saying the fuck* word at me and expect a different result.