ok so im just gonna vent here since im in a bit of a depressed mood rn. i hope thats ok with yall.
all my friends are leaving me. but it's weird, because they still hangout with each other and im not friends with them. does that mean i'm the problem? i told my parents about it, but all they did was make me feel worse. whenever another friend leaves, they always say the same thing. "Did you never say you liked them?" why do they always use my sexuality as an answer to my problems? i didn't even like them like that. what's wrong with me? why cant i ever keep a relationship? is it because im pansexual? is it because of my humor? my interests? i miss my friends sm. ive had such good memories with them, now its all gone. i feel like such a disappointment. so alone. i even sometimes think that no one would care if i left. i mean, if even my friends, who i share my secrets to and trust forever, leave me, they must not care about me as much as i care about them. i changed my personality so much, never spoke up, and agreed with everything my friends said. just to maybe hope that they'll stay with me. i've tried everything, but why can't i have a best friend forever, like in the movies?
ok vent over