i say tm
tw for someone idek
whats dumb?
therapy is dumb
why should i tell YOU anything?
you are a stranger, mi madre told me never talk to strangers, let alone give out personal information
you only want to know whats going on inside my mind to imprison me once again
give me medication thats supposed to make me happy, yet i just have more energy, still the same emotions
you give me pills and shots to make me sane but its not working
i go through trauma in my daily life, how will i get better
but no, no no no, please do not put me in foster care, do not take me away from my parents.
that is the only thing i will say, to you.
dumb, sick, cruel, government workers.
they get paid a pretty penny to diagnose me with some diagnonsense, this diagnosis makes no sense
what is a borderline personality? what am i compulsively obsessed with? huh? hmm??
smoking weed and not breathing air, its saving me- yet i do not have proper accses
no, no, marijuana is illegal where i live, illegal for recreational use. the more laws they make, the more laws that will be broken.
for sure, for sure, i will continue to break the governments' laws, and break my parents rules.
and everyone else will continue to call me a disappointment and break my heart
but what is now to be broken when no pieces are left?
my heart has been shattered into microscopic pieces and swept into a dustpan
somebody give me the answer, what good is it knowing what other people think about you?
what good is it thinking about what other people are saying, thinking, doing, all of the above?
in the beginning, or in the end, nothing will help, no words, no medication, none of it will do good for me.
allah, im so lively to the naked eye.
such an alive person i am in appearance. Rosey red cheeks, bloodshot eyes, and a white smile.
everyone else knows me as alive, a good quality, no?
my qualities that are exceptional to society are my appearance, and only that.
what goes on in my mind will be shamed upon and they will fact check it.
little scholars with their books, little twitter girlies with their opinions...
i am a category, a study, i liar, and..or, a target.
