Ig this is more of a rant but ayo lgbtq+ support thread it’s what it’s here for
One thing that has been on my mind recently is just my relationship with my identity.
A lot of people who are properly familiar with me here probably do know I am in fact a lesbian, but it’s not something I often scream from the top of my lungs and make a fuss out of. This is because, for me, my identity is nothing important or special. When I realised I was into girls, and grew older, that was just something I decided I wanted to be normal. So it just is lol. Often I forget straight is the norm LMAO. Online, it’s so easy to just act this way, because practically everyone is either lgbtq+, an ally, or someone who will bully a homophobe out of existence.
The issue comes irl though. I don’t think my relationship with my sexuality is a happy one. It’s sad. People I feel close and safe with know I’m a lesbian. That’s it. Because to me, I never wanted to have a “coming out moment”. I never wanted to have to announce to people that I’m gay. I just wanted to be able to go “I have a girlfriend” and everyone around me would just be like that’s so cool of you congrats bestie xox. That’s actually how I came out to a couple of my irl friends, when I was dating my ex. It was a nice way to come out, because it felt normal.
My dad doesn’t know I’m a lesbian. This is the main issue for me. He is not homophobic, in fact I had to actually try and explain to him once why people don’t accept trans and non-binary people because he couldn’t grasp the concept of not being okay with people’s identities, and he also once told me if I was gay, he would support me no matter what. It’s not that I don’t trust him. The thing is I want to be able to do that same thing with him, where I reveal it in such a normal way, that it would feel like a “straight person coming out” moment. But I don’t have a girlfriend. So instead, it doesn’t feel like a normal thing, it feels like something I’m actively keeping a secret, which is the opposite of what I want it to be. Because to me it isn’t a secret, it’s not something I’m ashamed of, it’s just something I wish everyone else saw the same way as I do. And because they don’t, it’s becoming what I don’t want it to be
Hope that made sense lol