So like. I think at one point in my life I tried to undo all the conditioning that kpop companies have done to us, and stop seeing idols as perfect magical beings and instead view them as realistic people. And from this I started to imagine them as if they’re like the opposite of what is being shown to me. Like not all the time. But sometimes.
And like. I just noticed it recently coz I was watching an idol react to finding out a lesbian couple was at their fansign and like I just said to myself “lmao imagine her just thinking ffs not these gays coming here” and then just laughed at the idea of one of my favourite idols being homophobic

(for clarification I’m gay which makes the fact I found this funny even more cursed). And then again today I saw a clip of one idol doing aegyo and another laughing and like slapping their arm Yknow a classic interaction and was just like “bet she’s thinking ffs Unnie you’re embarrassing us again”. So it seems I’ve gone the opposite way and instead of seeing my idols as perfect I now see them as evil