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YES THATS MEEEE <3
did everyone forget me irl? ik it's stupid to rely on social media and virtual things and all but i receive no more notifications from my friends in my old town. like, everyone stopped to message me. i feel like i became the second choice. that kinda hurts
i feel so lonely these days so i listen to music and make fake scenarios in my head 24/24. at the end, i realize that loneliness is better than bad friends
ik how u feel mate, i'm like horrible at comfort- like rlly bad at it, but maybe we could be friends?
why not!
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My mental health has been going up and down and I've been starving myself...I'm fat and ugly....I cut myself like twice but I have been mainly starving myself....I've been crying myself to sleep bc I don't feel like I'm good enough...and I'm not...I'm surprised that someone would like me...I hate my body, I hate the way I sound...I hate everything about me and I really shouldn't be here.....I fucking wish I was beautiful and skinny and shit...
I'll probably post more about it...maybe...
I'll probably post more about it...maybe...
uhhhh, Ik i'm bad at this kinda stuff but uhhhh, I think, It doesn't matter your appearance, whether you're big or small. Or short or tall, fat or skinny, your perfect the way you are, yk? and ik this prolly didn't help and i'm bad at my job- ily <3 :> you have no right to feel like that..
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Awww thanks.....i love you too <3
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getting better 
yay karugetting better
i don’t know how many people i’ve disappointed at this point
not me :>
OK then
We're putting this here!
We're putting this here!
Soo... I have this friend, and a few weeks ago he asked me out. We dated for about 2 days until I found out he'd been dating a sevie while dating me. I confronted him about it and he said he was poly. He'd never told me that before but I just didn't think much of it. So I talked to the sevie about it and they said that I needed to break up with him because they wanted to be the only one to date him. I told my bf about it and he sided with them and broke up with me. Now he's been spreading rumors about me, saying that I raped him and a bunch of other crap. My friends all believe him so now I only have 1 friend. It's depressing, really.
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My motivation has been dropping so quickly… I’ve lost interest in almost everything. At college I’m fine and I feel energised enough to get my jobs done. I’ve been getting revision done and stuff. But as soon as I get home my head starts to feel heavy and I lose interest in everything. No songs I could listen to hit the way I want them to. Genshin is too much effort. Watching YouTube is too much effort. Tiktok is like the only thing I can just about manage but even that just feels so dull sometimes… I hope this is just a brief thing and won’t last from now until the end of my exams :’)
i am so pinche disgusting
why do i say that ? why do i do that ?
whats wrong with me
why do i say that ? why do i do that ?
whats wrong with me
if i dont say it theyll take me
why do they do this to me?
im so nice wjy dont they let me be nice
I truly wonder why people want to befriend me. I am, and always have been that one kid who gets perfect scores when no one else does. The one who gets away with treating teachers quite rudely because of my connections. The one who wins the competitions, gets into elite private schools, has most of the teachers on my side at all times, the one that I myself would despise. It's curious though, how after all of this, the impressive things I have achieved, the ones that boost my pride and confidence to a near narcissistic degree, do people still acknowledge me as a friend.
Constantly, I project my beliefs and expectations onto others. I am rude, unapologetic, and cold. Yet why do people still chase after me? Entertainment? Truly the desire to accompany me? Or the hope that my parents and connections will help them go places.
After years of shutting out society and the pure intentions of people who simply wanted to help, I have built up a wall. Invulnerable to the words of others, I push people away. Though I crave the affirmation of others, to be embraced happily as a kind, intelligent person, I am simply unable to bring myself to that point. When I'm too close to spilling my thoughts or things I feel would cause me to be safer if I didn't share, I automatically shut down. I don't believe in the good of people and anything kind done to me I immediately associate with bad intentions.
Even with this, people still care? I have pondered this question so many times. Only to find that people come looking for me when they need an emotional support ragdoll, feel lonely and have no one else (meaning I'm their last resort), and/or need my help academically. But then there are people who truly care. People I don't acknowledge.
Sometimes I wonder if I started to cry in public, or showed an evident sign of weakness to those who may harm me with it. What would they do? What would they think of me? What would I think of myself?
People say I'm very stiff, serious, cold, and tense. Is it the fact that I don't deny any of the things they accuse me of but instead go along with it in the most unhumorous way possible? Or is it because I simply don't interact with people often and have teachers complimenting my every answer? Maybe because I don't talk about anything other than my achievements in both academics and other skills and hobbies. But isn't that just me carefully selecting the point in which I have the spotlight? Taking pride in my expensive education and hobbies?
Sorry, just some thoughts.
Constantly, I project my beliefs and expectations onto others. I am rude, unapologetic, and cold. Yet why do people still chase after me? Entertainment? Truly the desire to accompany me? Or the hope that my parents and connections will help them go places.
After years of shutting out society and the pure intentions of people who simply wanted to help, I have built up a wall. Invulnerable to the words of others, I push people away. Though I crave the affirmation of others, to be embraced happily as a kind, intelligent person, I am simply unable to bring myself to that point. When I'm too close to spilling my thoughts or things I feel would cause me to be safer if I didn't share, I automatically shut down. I don't believe in the good of people and anything kind done to me I immediately associate with bad intentions.
Even with this, people still care? I have pondered this question so many times. Only to find that people come looking for me when they need an emotional support ragdoll, feel lonely and have no one else (meaning I'm their last resort), and/or need my help academically. But then there are people who truly care. People I don't acknowledge.
Sometimes I wonder if I started to cry in public, or showed an evident sign of weakness to those who may harm me with it. What would they do? What would they think of me? What would I think of myself?
People say I'm very stiff, serious, cold, and tense. Is it the fact that I don't deny any of the things they accuse me of but instead go along with it in the most unhumorous way possible? Or is it because I simply don't interact with people often and have teachers complimenting my every answer? Maybe because I don't talk about anything other than my achievements in both academics and other skills and hobbies. But isn't that just me carefully selecting the point in which I have the spotlight? Taking pride in my expensive education and hobbies?
Sorry, just some thoughts.