❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[yvessznʚଓ]

am I not enough lol . I give up I really do .
tw ******* and sh trouble with eating ? I just really wanna kill myself so bad . the thoughts have gotten worse and now i just cry randomly and hate myself . I went back to cutting myself and things like that . i havent been eating that much too i feel sick sometimes when i smell or see food . and like its effecting me a lot . and my "friends" say they like me as a friend but do they really ? are they just trying to make me feel better .
I just REALLY don't understand what I'm doing wrong .

 

[yunaing]

I’m not going to lie. I feel a bit scared. I’m scared what the next 4 months are going to do to me.
I knew going into this year, college was going to be tough. But it’s really starting to hit now.
Tonight, I told myself I was going to do something - organise my playlist, make stuff for my fake group, whatever. But instead I sighed, got into bed and I’ve been doing nothing much since. This is only February. Today I had 2 2h lessons and an English exam, which lasted an hour. A mock exam. It doesn’t matter. But I feel so empty. I don’t have any motivation. I even told myself I could watch the ITZY videos I’ve been putting off like Tourbook or ITZY?ITZY! But I can’t be bothered. Everything feels like effort. This isn’t even my actual exams. It’s nowhere near my real exams. During my GCSEs I felt this way every day. I don’t want to feel like that again during my exam period. I don’t want to feel so miserable again

 

[rumisramyeon]

My life changed a little more than 2 years ago.
TW: ******* thoughts, death, cancer, depression, self-harm
My mom had been battling cancer since I was in 4th grade. The doctors said that the cancer had gone but a week later it hit full force and she had to go to the ER. It was during covid so I couldn't see my mom before she died. After that I fell into a depression. We moved from Arizona and my dad got his sister to help us with our move. 7th grade was tough, I had no friends, bad depresion/anxiety and everyday I harmed myself more and more. Occasionally I tried to kill myself but chickened out last minute. Not even a year after my mom died my dad started dating again. That was hard for me, having to adjust to not being the oldest anymore. I got 2 older sisters and 1 more younger sister along with my 4 siblings. We moved into their house when I was going into 8th grade, and making friends has been a little easier for me here. But I still battle with depression and ******* thoughts. And now that I'm in 9th grade my grades and other aspects are stressing me out.

 

[glosta]

beyond obsessed with him
unhealthily attatched,
same old same old

 

[gyuuop]

- This means i deleted this message

 

[Juju~]

Spoiler: these lyrics r relatable </3

THEY CAN'T RELATE TO HOW, I'VE DRAWN OUT IN SHARPIE WHERE I'D TAKE THE SCISSORS IF THAT'S WHAT IT TOOK FOR ME TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR. I'VE DONE EVERY DIET TO MAKE ME LOOK THINNER SO WHY DO I STILL FEEL SO GODDAMN INFERIOR <3

 

[Juju~]

TW: mention self harm. i think?

idk if this is self harm or not. but when I'm sad I bite the inside of my mouth or scratch my arms. idrk if that is but pls inform me.

 

[Maria29]

TW: mention self harm. i think?

idk if this is self harm or not. but when I'm sad I bite the inside of my mouth or scratch my arms. idrk if that is but pls inform me.

It is self harm if it brings u pain or how other people see it in their eyes but normally it called self harm bc my older sister does it and they told her that is self harm. and when you're sad just remember the things that make you happy.

 

[Juju~]

It is self harm if it brings u pain or how other people see it in their eyes but normally it called self harm bc my older sister does it and they told her that is self harm. and when you're sad just remember the things that make you happy.

but when I think abt something that makes me happy I just get even sadder bc all that stuff is gone :>

 

[Maria29]

Spoiler: Self Harm and others I dont know how to explain it..

Okay A lot has been going on. First, my dog, I had my dog for three years and recently I had to put him down because he bite a kid because my little brother left the gate open and he ran towards the kid because he thought he was a threat to my little brother. The police came and we explain our side and so did the mom (Even tho she wasnt even there). They took my dog away and when we went to see him, he looked so confused and scared about what going to happen to him.

Part 2 later bc my laptop dying

 

[gyuuop]

tw: sh & starving??
i started cutting again, nothing is getting better
i was doing so good.
i also started starving myself again, plus my little brother is very sick right now. im very stressed about that. i dont feel any motivation to do anything anymore. i just want to stay in my bed all day and not talk to anyone. my friendships are going downhill too-
life is just too hard for me. i just want to escape this reality, maybe i can be somewhere relaxing and not chaotic? my parents are screaming at me because my grades are bad too and i keep telling them that i can’t focus but they just refuse to believe me. my mom also started drinking again, life sucks my mom started saying shit to me a few days ago but i knew she wasn’t sober so i just ignored it. my stepdad doesn’t even try to stop my mom. my mom has been really abusive lately too. im starting to not feel safe with my mom. i dont feel safe anywhere.
i wished my life was great but its not, i’ve been trying to find someone to lean on. i want someone who can just listen to my problems. and then my older brother keeps on saying stupid shit about me, he called me the f-slur which was rlly annoying my mom keeps on saying that i’m dramatic and that she doesn’t care about me but then the next day she says she loves me?!?!! I just dont want to have any problems. my keeps on coming home drunk and it just hurts me to see her like that, she’s not the same person when she drinks. sure she says hurtful things to me but she’s still my mom

 

[Cantarella]

tw: sh & starving??
i started cutting again, nothing is getting better
i was doing so good.
i also started starving myself again, plus my little brother is very sick right now. im very stressed about that. i dont feel any motivation to do anything anymore. i just want to stay in my bed all day and not talk to anyone. my friendships are going downhill too-
life is just too hard for me. i just want to escape this reality, maybe i can be somewhere relaxing and not chaotic? my parents are screaming at me because my grades are bad too and i keep telling them that i can’t focus but they just refuse to believe me. my mom also started drinking again, life sucks my mom started saying shit to me a few days ago but i knew she wasn’t sober so i just ignored it. my stepdad doesn’t even try to stop my mom. my mom has been really abusive lately too. im starting to not feel safe with my mom. i dont feel safe anywhere.
i wished my life was great but its not, i’ve been trying to find someone to lean on. i want someone who can just listen to my problems. and then my older brother keeps on saying stupid shit about me, he called me the f-slur which was rlly annoying my mom keeps on saying that i’m dramatic and that she doesn’t care about me but then the next day she says she loves me?!?!! I just dont want to have any problems. my keeps on coming home drunk and it just hurts me to see her like that, she’s not the same person when she drinks. sure she says hurtful things to me but she’s still my mom ❤

Hey Ik it’s not much but, don’t hurt yourself Shikaru you are a great person and you don’t deserve anything that’s happening to you
Pls don’t skip your meals and stay healthy, if you ever wanna talk my pms are open

 

[gyuuop]

Hey Ik it’s not much but, don’t hurt yourself Shikaru you are a great person and you don’t deserve anything that’s happening to you
Pls don’t skip your meals and stay healthy, if you ever wanna talk my pms are open

Thank you Aeri it really does mean a lot

 

[yunaing]

I know it was my choice to cut them off... but idk... it still sucks losing friends I've had for years, and through some of the toughest points of my life. Idk what changed. It just did

 

[Juju~]

I know it was my choice to cut them off... but idk... it still sucks losing friends I've had for years, and through some of the toughest points of my life. Idk what changed. It just did

I feel you <3

 

[ur.local.dino]

one sentence changed the way some ppl viewed me. lmao

 

[ur.local.dino]

some people will just never understand

 

[ur.local.dino]

everything going on at once, it’s overwhelming. they don’t slow down for the people who are different. they don’t provide extra care for them either. they don’t show that they care and are with me. they don’t see the physical signs, therefore nothings wrong, right? they don’t realize i am different. they only are able to help those who think the same way, so why should i be frustrated? why don’t they try looking in my perspective? “doesn’t pay attention.” well, it’s hard when i’m different, so please show me that you understand i don’t process and function the same way as others. why should i try to be like them instead of having my own ways? why do only a few sentences become so hard to say? please help. i need help. i am different.

 

[yvessznʚଓ]

I'm such an attention seeker.
I literally hate myself sm

 

[Juju~]

I'm such an attention seeker.
I literally hate myself sm

Your not an attention seeker to me bestie, your and awesome person, to me and all your other friends <3 :> Ily <3 (I CAN'T FUCKING COMFORTBNIMOLCNBDJN)