I didn't understand. You werent going into detail, I didn't know what to say. Im sorry. :when i tried to
u were saying "oh?"
I didn't understand. You werent going into detail, I didn't know what to say. Im sorry. :when i tried to
u were saying "oh?"
I can't tell if I'm just sad because of this or I'm having a depressive episode...I hate December with such a burning passion.
Especially this year
I feel like crying for the first 2-3 weeks of the month.
I'm just sitting here rn with the feeling of needing to cry but I'm not gonna.
I shouldn't give that monster my tears.
But I miss everything. The angels, the protectors, my childhood, my haven.
And I get reminded every day driving past it. It's the worst kind of torture.
I want to remember them, but it just hurts to much during December.
I pray that nothing like this happens to any of you.
I mean there's a 99.999999% chance that it won't happen just cause of the circumstances.
But nobody should have to live through something like this, especially at such a young age.
Sometimes I still feel the numbness I did on that day.
And the actual day is gonna be hell. They're gonna come back and terrorize us.
I'll turn on the TV and oh there we are.
It should be remembered. People can't forget, but somehow it has been.
But I know this year it won't. And I don't know if I love that or hate that.
*I know this is incredibly vague and confusing but I can't reveal details. If you know you know*
If you need me don’t be afraid to dm and vent or whatever. I hope you’re okayI can't tell if I'm just sad because of this or I'm having a depressive episode...
I feel you. I think it’s just the extreme anxiety that we tend to experience and we can’t help but experience those kinds of symptoms that goes along with it.So umm....
Every once in a while, in one of my classes, I start to get this really weird feeling. I know I have felt this feeling before, but just not this "severe"
But I'll just be sitting there and then all the sudden I feel like I want to puke, cry, maybe even scream. I shake, and my breathing gets... quicker? My stomach also gets the kind of butterflies I usually get when I'm nervous. And it's not like I'm about to stand up in class and present something. I just sitting there in class. I don't know what is happening.......
And I feel like I can't ask my mom because she would probably give me a false answer, I can't ask my dad because he would use his AnGrY tone on me (because for some reason I'm not allowed to have anything related to a mental problem) and I can't tell my bestie because I know her problems are so much worse and I still haven't been able to find a way to comfort her... and I can't tell a counselor/teacher because that is embarrassing and I can't talk about my problems irl without crying.
... oh wait I just realized I'm writing this on a school laptop--
But I just wanted to say this on here because I am more comfortable speaking with people online, and I just wanna figure out what is happening to me-
and as I am writing this, the feeling is coming back. But without the shaking and wanted to cry/scream... I do wanna puke though
idk if this is the right place to post this kinda stuff but... I guess we'll see-
maybe take a hiatus! sometimes taking breaks can really help and it really helped me when I took a break from youtube for about a week.My life is falling apart. and this forum is making it even worse..
i feel so left out of everything.
its ok, no one needs me anyways
im not important
mhm sure we can be friendsYes, you are! I know how you feel.
i can be your friend, if you'd like?(I need a friend hehe)
Yay! just pm if you want 2 talkmhm sure we can be friends