Thanks for letting me know hunno, she got banned for allegedly faking her mental illnesses and (from what I remember) for trashtalking other users in PMs.
Thanks for letting me know hunno, she got banned for allegedly faking her mental illnesses and (from what I remember) for trashtalking other users in PMs.
no problemThanks for letting me know hun
you are doing extremely well kas i love you and i'll always be here, even if you lose. :] <3 just know you are winning, you always will beIf I ever lose my battle to depression, just know I tried. I really, really tried but I couldn’t do it in the end. I wasn’t strong enough and I couldn’t take it, but please don’t cry for me, it won’t mean anything. Just tell me I did well and that hopefully at least someone out there truly and honestly loved me.
Thank you, I just...don’t know how much more I can take..but thank you, nessa <3you are doing extremely well kas i love you and i'll always be here, even if you lose. :] <3 just know you are winning, you always will be
of course beb <33Thank you, I just...don’t know how much more I can take..but thank you, nessa <3
Pm me hunnyTW: anxiety, death
i dont know if i used the trigger warning right
anygays, hihi people. yesterday wasn't my day. i mean the day was amazing, it was my birthday, i got to see my family and i got two beautiful (and wonderful tasting) cakes. everything was what it was supposed to be. however, before my uncle and his family left, i felt weird and on the verge of crying and once they did leave, i just couldnt control anything. everything became blurry, i started to shake controllably, and got a massive headache. my parents tried to calm me down but eventually had me take one of my mom's anxiety medicines. i was told to take a shower afterwards and i just sat in the corner of the tub still crying and shaking. i had my music on so i would have something to focus on. i tried messaging my friends and told them that i needed somebody. they said that they were their for me but then left me on read. i ended up just being done then my shower got cold and i forced myself to get out.
then today in Spanish, i started to feel it coming and my teacher had me go to the councilor.
this is all new to me, if anyone knows what is happening to me please help me.
the councilor did say this could be my body's reaction from two of my grandmas dying in January and normal teenager stuff and the stress going on in the world.
is it ok if i pm u?TW: anxiety, death
i dont know if i used the trigger warning right
anygays, hihi people. yesterday wasn't my day. i mean the day was amazing, it was my birthday, i got to see my family and i got two beautiful (and wonderful tasting) cakes. everything was what it was supposed to be. however, before my uncle and his family left, i felt weird and on the verge of crying and once they did leave, i just couldnt control anything. everything became blurry, i started to shake controllably, and got a massive headache. my parents tried to calm me down but eventually had me take one of my mom's anxiety medicines. i was told to take a shower afterwards and i just sat in the corner of the tub still crying and shaking. i had my music on so i would have something to focus on. i tried messaging my friends and told them that i needed somebody. they said that they were their for me but then left me on read. i ended up just being done then my shower got cold and i forced myself to get out.
then today in Spanish, i started to feel it coming and my teacher had me go to the councilor.
this is all new to me, if anyone knows what is happening to me please help me.
the councilor did say this could be my body's reaction from two of my grandmas dying in January and normal teenager stuff and the stress going on in the world.
I'm sure you're winning. Ily, and a lot of users does here. And, you have to know even if you lose it, you'll always have us for you.<3If I ever lose my battle to depression, just know I tried. I really, really tried but I couldn’t do it in the end. I wasn’t strong enough and I couldn’t take it, but please don’t cry for me, it won’t mean anything. Just tell me I did well and that hopefully at least someone out there truly and honestly loved me.
I think you realize that you lost two grandmothers. Two suddenly, I know, with my grandfather dead in 2018, the pain I had multiplied by 2 can trigger panic attacks, anxiety, stress. Know that, this will stop soon, and I advise you to do things that you like, for example drink or eat what you like, listen to music, dance, sing, draw ... it will help you.anygays, hihi people. yesterday wasn't my day. i mean the day was amazing, it was my birthday, i got to see my family and i got two beautiful (and wonderful tasting) cakes. everything was what it was supposed to be. however, before my uncle and his family left, i felt weird and on the verge of crying and once they did leave, i just couldnt control anything. everything became blurry, i started to shake controllably, and got a massive headache. my parents tried to calm me down but eventually had me take one of my mom's anxiety medicines. i was told to take a shower afterwards and i just sat in the corner of the tub still crying and shaking. i had my music on so i would have something to focus on. i tried messaging my friends and told them that i needed somebody. they said that they were their for me but then left me on read. i ended up just being done then my shower got cold and i forced myself to get out.
then today in Spanish, i started to feel it coming and my teacher had me go to the councilor.
this is all new to me, if anyone knows what is happening to me please help me.
the councilor did say this could be my body's reaction from two of my grandmas dying in January and normal teenager stuff and the stress going on in the world.
please do!is it ok if i pm u?
i have some advice
thank you!I think you realize that you lost two grandmothers. Two suddenly, I know, with my grandfather dead in 2018, the pain I had multiplied by 2 can trigger panic attacks, anxiety, stress. Know that, this will stop soon, and I advise you to do things that you like, for example drink or eat what you like, listen to music, dance, sing, draw ... it will help you.
and all my condolences to your family. <3
I know you said that you didn't want messages but I can't help myself-TW// Mention of past su*cide, self harm, and other mental health things
So about a day from now will be the 6 year anniversary of when I tried to take my own life.
This time of year is always hard for me. It was when I tended to have break downs and got hospitalized.
I think it's due to stress and burn out that exacerbates my mental health disorders. In addition, turning a year older (as I did on the 4th), reminds me of everything in the future. This multiplies my anxiety by a million and makes me want to give up.
So these next couple of days are gonna be super difficult. I already feel this overarching sadness all the time.
I feel lonely and like nobody wants me around, even thought I know this is not true.
I even thought about harming myself again. Which is something I haven't done in 3 years now. I'm not gonna do it, so you don't have to worry about me. I know it's a really stupid thing to do and will set back all of my hard work. Plus, I'm an adult. I feel like I need to leave behind all the mental health shit of my teenage years.
I keep imagining the day it happened and all. I won't go into detail for the sake of myself seeing the words written out. I also don't want to trigger any of you.
But it's hard to see the scars.
Anyways, I'll be having a hard time these next couple of days. So I may seem off. Like less happy, energetic. I'll probably be all self-deprecating, which I hate doing. It's cause all that's going through my head right now is that nobody wants me here or anywhere. I might even get into a pissy mood like I was a day or two ago. So please bare with me, and know that it's not your fault. It's all on me, and the "normal" Tara will be back soon.
You don't have to send me messages about this or treat me like I'm made of glass. If I need help I'll reach out. I don't like emotions and I don't like making people feel obligated to help me. It's my problem, and nobody deserves to get entangled in it.
I appreciate all of you. And thank you for reading if you got this far, but I doubt any of you care enough to.
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thank youI know you said that you didn't want messages but I can't help myself-
I just want you to know that I (and a lot of other people) are very, extremely happy that you're still here. You're so nice to everyone around you, you're so very comforting even though I've never actually met you. I think that my time on this forum is a lot better just because I spend most of it talking to you. You're such an amazing person and I know for a FACT that a lot of people care about you. Even Kiri, who has this sort of fear of making friends and stuff, talks about you like y'all are very close.
사랑해!!!! <3
JC jokei feel so gross. and insecure. like i literally don't do anything right. there's not a lot of point in comforting me anymore because i don't change. i'm only 7 hours clean. i literally am scared to talk to my friends, i force myself to grow apart from them, i can't get my fucking work done that now i have to do a weeks worth of. homwork tonight before they mark it missing tomorrow :/ i'm at such a loss like my body is so weak and my thoughts are so scattered but it isn't an excuse ig. i'm trying to act happy for everyone but then i recieve absolute shit back. i just want what everyone else has. and i want the friendships they have. i don't want to be a third wheel in my own life like thats so dissapointing. i'm so..exhausted. my mind and my body. i want to sleep peacefully again. i want to sit peacefully again. i want to live peacefully again. idk lmaoaooa