❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[saaylhy]

its the end of the schoolyear and i feel depressed
i don't wanna start a new life again. it's too much change for me
also was it rude to unfollow my ex bff on insta? after all she did to us? bc when i told my other friend about this, she said "that's mean"

 

[sanasideup]

its the end of the schoolyear and i feel depressed
i don't wanna start a new life again. it's too much change for me
also was it rude to unfollow my ex bff on insta? after all she did to us? bc when i told my other friend about this, she said "that's mean"

if you ever need to talk, my pms are always open.
and i don't think it was rude to unfollow her. she treated you badly, so you shouldn't feel obligated to follow her. whatever is best for you is what you need to do <3

 

[saaylhy]

if you ever need to talk, my pms are always open.
and i don't think it was rude to unfollow her. she treated you badly, so you shouldn't feel obligated to follow her. whatever is best for you is what you need to do <3

thanks, you're so sweet
but this friend knows what she did... shy is she telling me that it was rude

 

[sanasideup]

thanks, you're so sweet
but this friend knows what she did... shy is she telling me that it was rude

some ppl have a hard time standing up to others, even by unfollowing them, so maybe that's why. who knows lol

 

[yunaing]

Caring is so tiring…
Everywhere I look people are angry or upset. They always have something to say and they always need to make sure people hear it.
People spread news and awareness, and I consume it because I don’t want to be part of the problem. I want to be politically aware. I want to be supportive. I want to support everyone.

It’s just too tiring. People arguing. People calling each other names. People making me feel stupid or like a bad person for not knowing. People making me feel like I should be worried about myself because what if I’m next.

I just want to enjoy life. I want to be in spaces where people are happy and just have fun. I want to enjoy this life, I want to make friends and I want us to have fun together. I want us to just be silly and say stupid things and have a fun time.

Instead whenever I speak I feel like I have to tread on eggshells just in case someone interprets my words wrong. When I read stuff my mind gets filled with doubts and fears. I can’t focus on anything without having arguments with myself trying to defend myself and protect myself. If it gets too bad I can’t sleep at night.

I know this world isn’t fair. I know people are suffering. I know people aren’t getting treated fairly. It’s everywhere. And I want to support people. But sometimes it’s just too much. Sometimes I just want to pretend like nothing is happening at all

 

[yunaing]

And nowww Twitter is covered in arguing again over my favourite game. I’m so sick of it all. I just want to enjoy things without people shoving down my throat “this game is bad because of this” and “this person is bad because of that” I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN

 

[sua.lel.bora]

And nowww Twitter is covered in arguing again over my favourite game. I’m so sick of it all. I just want to enjoy things without people shoving down my throat “this game is bad because of this” and “this person is bad because of that” I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN

what happened? if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Horanghae !]

i ran into someone unexpected today and they ruined the whole mood. the water park is supposed to be fun but knowing her presence was there made me so bothered and miserable. she kept saying things esp my name when i walked past her. is she still on me? is she still bothered that i'm (trying) to get on without her? idk y she feels the need to laugh when i hear my name being called. me and her made eye contact and that put my stomach into knots. he also calls people "it" when she's mad at them i hope she isn't calling me that i can't even imagine what high school will be like...

 

[Seogi]

i ran into someone unexpected today and they ruined the whole mood. the water park is supposed to be fun but knowing her presence was there made me so bothered and miserable. she kept saying things esp my name when i walked past her. is she still on me? is she still bothered that i'm (trying) to get on without her? idk y she feels the need to laugh when i hear my name being called. me and her made eye contact and that put my stomach into knots. he also calls people "it" when she's mad at them i hope she isn't calling me that i can't even imagine what high school will be like...

LET ME AT THEM NOW

 

[Horanghae !]

LET ME AT THEM NOW

ty for caring i would if i could

 

[Seogi]

ty for caring i would if i could

Always.

 

[yunaing]

Lmao now I actually need advice...

I've had a shitty year honestly. It's plausible at this point I may be suffering with social anxiety, due to the ridiculous amount of nerves I feel involving any task involving talking to people. People around me laugh and say I can talk fine but they don't really understand the internal feelings I feel involving conversations. Conversations often feel very artifical to me. I can't find the words to say. I get afraid something will go wrong. It's a lot, but I've not been diagnosed with anything so I don't want to boldly claim anything. I just need to explain this so that my situation may be understood better.

Towards the end of Year 11, I began to feel very isolated from my friend group. I felt like I had nothing in common with them and that I was just not on good grounds with them. I wanted to use college (year 12) as an opportunity to make new friends but I've had an awful time doing so because of my social issues. This has lead me to spend almost this entire year alone, and is the reason I spend most of my time online - I have practically no one offline who I can spend time with. As a solution, I decided to hang out with some of my year 11 friends every thursday for lunch (important detail) at college just so I could feel a little less alone.

Earlier this year there was a day that involved an event on a Thursday. I had a lesson after the event, neither of my friends did. When I went to meet up with them, neither of them showed up. After about 5 mins of waiting I asked where they were only for them to tell me they'd eaten without me already since they'd gone for lunch straight after the event. I felt broken. Not because they ate without me but because they didn't tell me, as if I was an after thought.

Sometimes we'd meet on Mondays, but this didn't last long after one Monday they failed to tell me neither of them were coming in. They forgot to tell me they were busy another Thursday (this might've happened twice, I've lost count). At this point I could only cry over being forgotten so much, so I decided to attempt to put my foot down. This was about a month ago. I deleated both their phone numbers and decided I wouldn't engage with them anymore. The week after that, they didn't text me, and I thought maybe the fact I didn't respond to their excuses the week before gave them a signal I was done with them. But I suppose I thought wrong because last week they texted me again asking if I was eating lunch with them. I was furious that there'd been yet another week they'd forgotten about me and I only hadn't realised because I was done with them. They texted me twice to get me to reply, so I gave them a blunt response and moved on.

It was my plan to just keep doing that until they gave up, but now one of them (remember, deleated their numbers) is now asking me about how I'm doing. I am awful at standing up for myself and being honest. I don't know which one it is, so I don't even know if I'd want to be honest with them anyway. And I know I should be protecting myself and not even giving them the chance to listen to my feelings after they've caused me to cry about being alone so many times. But I've read the message now and feel so guilty just ignoring them with no explanation. But then, if I explain what happened, they might beg for forgiveness and make me feel bad. But I don't trust them to not hurt me over and over. And it's not like I even really want to be their friend anymore anyway...

Sorry this is a doozy

 

[sanasideup]

Lmao now I actually need advice...

I've had a shitty year honestly. It's plausible at this point I may be suffering with social anxiety, due to the ridiculous amount of nerves I feel involving any task involving talking to people. People around me laugh and say I can talk fine but they don't really understand the internal feelings I feel involving conversations. Conversations often feel very artifical to me. I can't find the words to say. I get afraid something will go wrong. It's a lot, but I've not been diagnosed with anything so I don't want to boldly claim anything. I just need to explain this so that my situation may be understood better.

Towards the end of Year 11, I began to feel very isolated from my friend group. I felt like I had nothing in common with them and that I was just not on good grounds with them. I wanted to use college (year 12) as an opportunity to make new friends but I've had an awful time doing so because of my social issues. This has lead me to spend almost this entire year alone, and is the reason I spend most of my time online - I have practically no one offline who I can spend time with. As a solution, I decided to hang out with some of my year 11 friends every thursday for lunch (important detail) at college just so I could feel a little less alone.

Earlier this year there was a day that involved an event on a Thursday. I had a lesson after the event, neither of my friends did. When I went to meet up with them, neither of them showed up. After about 5 mins of waiting I asked where they were only for them to tell me they'd eaten without me already since they'd gone for lunch straight after the event. I felt broken. Not because they ate without me but because they didn't tell me, as if I was an after thought.

Sometimes we'd meet on Mondays, but this didn't last long after one Monday they failed to tell me neither of them were coming in. They forgot to tell me they were busy another Thursday (this might've happened twice, I've lost count). At this point I could only cry over being forgotten so much, so I decided to attempt to put my foot down. This was about a month ago. I deleated both their phone numbers and decided I wouldn't engage with them anymore. The week after that, they didn't text me, and I thought maybe the fact I didn't respond to their excuses the week before gave them a signal I was done with them. But I suppose I thought wrong because last week they texted me again asking if I was eating lunch with them. I was furious that there'd been yet another week they'd forgotten about me and I only hadn't realised because I was done with them. They texted me twice to get me to reply, so I gave them a blunt response and moved on.

It was my plan to just keep doing that until they gave up, but now one of them (remember, deleated their numbers) is now asking me about how I'm doing. I am awful at standing up for myself and being honest. I don't know which one it is, so I don't even know if I'd want to be honest with them anyway. And I know I should be protecting myself and not even giving them the chance to listen to my feelings after they've caused me to cry about being alone so many times. But I've read the message now and feel so guilty just ignoring them with no explanation. But then, if I explain what happened, they might beg for forgiveness and make me feel bad. But I don't trust them to not hurt me over and over. And it's not like I even really want to be their friend anymore anyway...

Sorry this is a doozy

my only advice is to be honest. what's best for you isn't always gonna make others happy, but you're the most important person in your life and sometimes you have to be put first. i'd say this is one of those times. and if you think it would be helpful, i'd definitely recommend talking to parents abt seeing someone abt the social anxiety; if you don't have it, great, at least you know. and if you do, great, now you know and you can learn some tools to help w it.

 

[yunaing]

my only advice is to be honest. what's best for you isn't always gonna make others happy, but you're the most important person in your life and sometimes you have to be put first. i'd say this is one of those times. and if you think it would be helpful, i'd definitely recommend talking to parents abt seeing someone abt the social anxiety; if you don't have it, great, at least you know. and if you do, great, now you know and you can learn some tools to help w it.

I saw a councillor a few times throughout the year. It helped me with quite a few things. One thing for example was I noticed through it that I surrounded by myself with a lot content online that was very anti-recovery. I felt like I wasn’t treating my health seriously and so began to distance myself from the jokes and humour so that I could consider myself in a more responsible way, and since then a lot of my worse negative thoughts left. I also became a little happier with who I am as a person.
But sadly it really didn’t help with the social issues. Sometimes they’re not as bad but right now I still feel quite sick sometimes at the thought of socialising or socialising itself. I don’t really know how to handle it but my mum is aware and basically said if it gets to university time and I’m still like this she’ll take me to a doctor.
I went to bed after I posted that post and even though it took me over half an hour (which is very abnormal for me) to fall asleep, I was able to in the end. I didn’t reply to my “friend” yet, but I’m still trying to think of a way to respond

 

[yunaing]

I saw a councillor a few times throughout the year. It helped me with quite a few things. One thing for example was I noticed through it that I surrounded by myself with a lot content online that was very anti-recovery. I felt like I wasn’t treating my health seriously and so began to distance myself from the jokes and humour so that I could consider myself in a more responsible way, and since then a lot of my worse negative thoughts left. I also became a little happier with who I am as a person.
But sadly it really didn’t help with the social issues. Sometimes they’re not as bad but right now I still feel quite sick sometimes at the thought of socialising or socialising itself. I don’t really know how to handle it but my mum is aware and basically said if it gets to university time and I’m still like this she’ll take me to a doctor.
I went to bed after I posted that post and even though it took me over half an hour (which is very abnormal for me) to fall asleep, I was able to in the end. I didn’t reply to my “friend” yet, but I’m still trying to think of a way to respond

Had to sort of just rush that coz I have something else I want to add.

One thing I decided to do to combat my social fears was to help out at our college open days and talk to year 11 students who want to study my course. I was so fucking nervous going into it, my stomach was hurting my mouth is dry I was shaking. Even said I was in upper sixth when I’m not but I did the first talk and it went really well so! I know it’s not the same as making friends but I wanted to challenge myself since public speaking is something I’m petrified of

 

[sanasideup]

Had to sort of just rush that coz I have something else I want to add.

One thing I decided to do to combat my social fears was to help out at our college open days and talk to year 11 students who want to study my course. I was so fucking nervous going into it, my stomach was hurting my mouth is dry I was shaking. Even said I was in upper sixth when I’m not but I did the first talk and it went really well so! I know it’s not the same as making friends but I wanted to challenge myself since public speaking is something I’m petrified of

i hope things continue to get better then. and i'm proud of you for speaking in public! a lot of ppl wouldn't do that

 

[saaylhy]

Spoiler: TW / CW : mention of *******, swearing

ngl idk if this was the best year or not
i met so many good ppl but some dramas in the school really got out of hand, especially the one with my ex best friend.
look.
at the end of the 2nd trimester, my overall grade average was 14. in the 3rd trimester, it was 12. in the beginning of the 3rd trimester, it was here. where all drama and stress came out. so that's why my grades went down, but ofc, my parents and school dgaf
but like? there was a ******* attempt. done by my crush. (or ex crush idk) and like, the school team didn't take time to talk to us, his class? to offer us some mental support?
or like my ex best friend pretending to have suicidal thoughts, and coming after 2 weeks of holidays, saying "everything is fine, don't mind me. i talked with my parents"
my dad becoming more & more stressing... he is telling me that if i fail my exams next year, he won't pay us travels
and moving before that schoolyear, with the exams, is not good... like i'd like to pass this exam in my previous school, since they din't have the same subjects or way to teach
and all the ppl around me have no difficulties...
i'm also stressed for my next school, bc my previous school was a private school. before that, i was in a public school, where i got bullied
and my next school is a public school-
also my mom and dad have such different points of view. my dad tells me to be wary of ppl, and my mom is telling me to be sociable - ?????

 

[I see that Im icy]

TW//ya know what this thread is for

I don't really feel depressed or alone but I am really nervous about this. I have been homeschooled since I have memory, and this year was my first time attending to a regular school. It was a little bit strange but the fact that we were almost entirely online made me feel better. Next year I'm going to a school were 2 out of 3 activities and projects are teamwork. I'm so fucking anxious. This year in school was hell, the buildings made me feel uncomfortable, my classmates were mean, the teachers didn't care about their job and a mexican classic: in the end-of-the-year party some guys were sneaking drugs into drinks. I am happy that this time I'm going to another highschool but I fear it might be the same.

 

[I see that Im icy]

Spoiler: TW / CW : mention of *******, swearing

ngl idk if this was the best year or not
i met so many good ppl but some dramas in the school really got out of hand, especially the one with my ex best friend.
look.
at the end of the 2nd trimester, my overall grade average was 14. in the 3rd trimester, it was 12. in the beginning of the 3rd trimester, it was here. where all drama and stress came out. so that's why my grades went down, but ofc, my parents and school dgaf
but like? there was a ******* attempt. done by my crush. (or ex crush idk) and like, the school team didn't take time to talk to us, his class? to offer us some mental support?
or like my ex best friend pretending to have suicidal thoughts, and coming after 2 weeks of holidays, saying "everything is fine, don't mind me. i talked with my parents"
my dad becoming more & more stressing... he is telling me that if i fail my exams next year, he won't pay us travels
and moving before that schoolyear, with the exams, is not good... like i'd like to pass this exam in my previous school, since they din't have the same subjects or way to teach
and all the ppl around me have no difficulties...
i'm also stressed for my next school, bc my previous school was a private school. before that, i was in a public school, where i got bullied
and my next school is a public school-
also my mom and dad have such different points of view. my dad tells me to be wary of ppl, and my mom is telling me to be sociable - ?????

I can understand the public school issue, as I mentioned before, my image of schools is ruined by public school. Too bad it was the first school I attended. Btw, idk how it is where you are from but my only friend from school gave birth 1 month ago - she's 15

 

[sanasideup]

I can understand the public school issue, as I mentioned before, my image of schools is ruined by public school. Too bad it was the first school I attended. Btw, idk how it is where you are from but my only friend from school gave birth 1 month ago - she's 15

where i'm from (alabama in the us), our school is pretty much the same. my bsf had a baby at 12, tho... but she was r-worded, so...)
but i understand being anxious, and i hope things getter better for you