Hmm how do I exactly put what I want to say heretw/ eating, ED, body dysmorphia, all of that kinda stuff
Idk if it is just me, but the mirror I had in my dorm made me look completely different than the one in my room at home. The one in my room makes me look smushed down and chunky. My dorm one made me look skinny and tall. Whenever I look in the mirror now I envision myself weighing much more than I actually do. Even when I'm walking around my thighs brushing together feel so much more present. My body dysmorphia is coming back with all the power it is capable of.
I've been thinking about loosing some weight again but haven't had the motivation to do so. I'm on the lower side of my weight spectrum. But I just feel gross and look gross. I weighed myself today, so I have an idea of how much I want to lose.
But I also don't want to start this again. I'm an adult and need to get my shit together and stop diving into ED habits.
Why do brains have to be so annoying.
Here goes
You're perfect, even when you don't feel like it at times (Idk how to what I want to say here in words)