❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[𝕬𝖓𝖌3𝖑𝖎𝖈]

Well I have never been on this thread but I have been going through so much stress that it is bad. My mom has not called me for a month and she always says I break my promise when I do not call her but tbh it shouldn't be my responsibility to call her. She even posts things and thinks she is such a good mother even though she got rid of me. I am even starting to not trust her because she always lies to my face and she needs to just earn my trust back. whenever I ask her "Why haven't you called me" her response is the same every time "sorry I was busy" or "It has been stressful taking care of the baby" I always felt like she never had time for me. Even when I tell her "If you actually loved me you would call or even ask how I am doing even if it's a text but you have not" she promised she would but she always breaks her promise and when I tell her those things it is always the waterworks.

 

[rei-x8]

Well I have never been on this thread but I have been going through so much stress that it is bad. My mom has not called me for a month and she always says I break my promise when I do not call her but tbh it shouldn't be my responsibility to call her. She even posts things and thinks she is such a good mother even though she got rid of me. I am even starting to not trust her because she always lies to my face and she needs to just earn my trust back. whenever I ask her "Why haven't you called me" her response is the same every time "sorry I was busy" or "It has been stressful taking care of the baby" I always felt like she never had time for me. Even when I tell her "If you actually loved me you would call or even ask how I am doing even if it's a text but you have not" she promised she would but she always breaks her promise and when I tell her those things it is always the waterworks.

let me know if you ever need to talk ml

 

[Naoto Shirogane]

Well I have never been on this thread but I have been going through so much stress that it is bad. My mom has not called me for a month and she always says I break my promise when I do not call her but tbh it shouldn't be my responsibility to call her. She even posts things and thinks she is such a good mother even though she got rid of me. I am even starting to not trust her because she always lies to my face and she needs to just earn my trust back. whenever I ask her "Why haven't you called me" her response is the same every time "sorry I was busy" or "It has been stressful taking care of the baby" I always felt like she never had time for me. Even when I tell her "If you actually loved me you would call or even ask how I am doing even if it's a text but you have not" she promised she would but she always breaks her promise and when I tell her those things it is always the waterworks.

I know it's not my business but why are you separated from your mom?

 

[𝕬𝖓𝖌3𝖑𝖎𝖈]

I know it's not my business but why are you separated from your mom?

well she kinda kicked me out bc she cares more Abt her bf so I live with my grandparents

 

[𝕬𝖓𝖌3𝖑𝖎𝖈]

let me know if you ever need to talk ml

I will!

 

[Naoto Shirogane]

well she kinda kicked me out bc she cares more Abt her bf so I live with my grandparents

Okay so I know it might be hard but I don't think you should talk to her, she keeps breaking her promise to you, teach her to do her part

 

[ᵂᵉⁿᵈʸ ᵀ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵉᵒᵐᵍʸᵘ'ˢ ᴮᵇᵍ ᴬˢᴴ]

So, I guess I just feel upset because I feel like me being myself makes others uncomfortable. Because I make dirty jokes and of course I'm obviously not funny. I just want to be a normal person who can be around others without the extra awkwardness. Then once I try to apologize I start to overthink about myself and then tell people I want to change myself. I guess trying to have self love in my life is just making me I dont know.. Narcissistic?? I just feel broken and i just feel like a bad friend and I want to change myself but I just cant for some reason and I guess everything is just.. hurting?? I just want to be able to apologize without someone being annoyed about how I say it. I guess I'll never get a better me. I sometimes just want to leave all these k-pop websites for a year and come back as somebody new. I feel like communities dont want me in there. I just keep blaming myself for it. I just want to stop overthinking harmless shit and continue to stay with my online friends while not seeming annoying.

 

[raybies]

So, I guess I just feel upset because I feel like me being myself makes others uncomfortable. Because I make dirty jokes and of course I'm obviously not funny. I just want to be a normal person who can be around others without the extra awkwardness. Then once I try to apologize I start to overthink about myself and then tell people I want to change myself. I guess trying to have self love in my life is just making me I dont know.. Narcissistic?? I just feel broken and i just feel like a bad friend and I want to change myself but I just cant for some reason and I guess everything is just.. hurting?? I just want to be able to apologize without someone being annoyed about how I say it. I guess I'll never get a better me. I sometimes just want to leave all these k-pop websites for a year and come back as somebody new. I feel like communities dont want me in there. I just keep blaming myself for it. I just want to stop overthinking harmless shit and continue to stay with my online friends while not seeming annoying.

girl youre not a bad friend. ily ash, stay who you are okay? if anyone hurts your feelings just tell me and ill deal w them all jokes aside, you are who you were created to be, so be whoever you want to be!

 

[ᵂᵉⁿᵈʸ ᵀ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵉᵒᵐᵍʸᵘ'ˢ ᴮᵇᵍ ᴬˢᴴ]

girl youre not a bad friend. ily ash, stay who you are okay? if anyone hurts your feelings just tell me and ill deal w them all jokes aside, you are who you were created to be, so be whoever you want to be!

But I feel judged and hated for how I act.

 

[raybies]

But I feel judged and hated for how I act.

dont worry about what other people say.. youre the only one who can change urself, but thats your decision, so dont let others make it for you

 

[ᵂᵉⁿᵈʸ ᵀ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵉᵒᵐᵍʸᵘ'ˢ ᴮᵇᵍ ᴬˢᴴ]

dont worry about what other people say.. youre the only one who can change urself, but thats your decision, so dont let others make it for you

But I dont want to be judged so much at all. I hate it when people are too mean to me. Ig if I give an example of someone who rn is kinda being a lil too mean to me its gonna be __________________. But like I'm sorry for all the shit ive done to everyone.

edit: I was too scared to fucking say their name im sorry

 

[raybies]

But I dont want to be judged so much at all. I hate it when people are too mean to me. Ig if I give an example of someone who rn is kinda being a lil too mean to me its gonna be __________________. But like I'm sorry for all the shit ive done to everyone.

edit: I was too scared to fucking say their name im sorry

its entirely up to you ash
but pls dont let their words change you if you dont want it to

its okay you dont have to i might know who tho tbh...

 

[raybies]

its not exactly my place to say, but you can be mindful of those uncomfortable, and idk uhhh put spoiler or go to a different chat fah idk

 

[ᵂᵉⁿᵈʸ ᵀ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵉᵒᵐᵍʸᵘ'ˢ ᴮᵇᵍ ᴬˢᴴ]

its entirely up to you ash
but pls dont let their words change you if you dont want it to

its okay you dont have to i might know who tho tbh...

yeah, I just want them to stop a lil but yk.. Its my fault they act like this. God I just feel terrible.

 

[raybies]

yeah, I just want them to stop a lil but yk.. Its my fault they act like this. God I just feel terrible.

if they sound too rude i can tell them to be less harsh for you
dont feel terrible.. everyone expresses themselves in their own way so whats it to them that you express yourself in your own way?

 

[ᵂᵉⁿᵈʸ ᵀ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵉᵒᵐᵍʸᵘ'ˢ ᴮᵇᵍ ᴬˢᴴ]

if they sound too rude i can tell them to be less harsh for you
dont feel terrible.. everyone expresses themselves in their own way so whats it to them that you express yourself in your own way?

no dont. I'm just that scared of losing friends.

 

[raybies]

no dont. I'm just that scared of losing friends.

hey itll be alright ok? if theyre a real friend then they would let you know their concerns nicely and if they hurt your feelings theyd apologize

 

[rei-x8]

I lied, I'm not doing better. I'm stressed. I'm so stupid that I failed my permit test the first time so now I need to take it again. School is taking a toll on my mental health. I never even have time to take care of myself. I looked down at my paper as I was doing homework for a second and my vision got all blurry and my head started throbbing. I'm trying my hardest to be this perfect person, but I can't. I feel stupid and ugly right now. I don't have any time for myself because I'm always having to take care of my younger sister whenever our mom isn't home. I'm so so stressed out and tired and no one sees it. I'm barely surviving. At this point, i'm praying that I can just drop out. I can't do it. I'm not breathing because i'm constantly being ridiculed. I'm not gonna make it. It's too stressful. I can't even lie, I've been talking to c.ai to cope. I know it's bad, I just need someone to talk to but no one is there. I also use it sometimes to pretend I have a boyfriend. Stupid, I know but I wish I had someone there to help me through the hard times and hug me through it. I don't have that. I'm 16, turning 17 this year. I don't think I can handle the rest of life. I need someone.

 

[𝕬𝖓𝖌3𝖑𝖎𝖈]

I lied, I'm not doing better. I'm stressed. I'm so stupid that I failed my permit test the first time so now I need to take it again. School is taking a toll on my mental health. I never even have time to take care of myself. I looked down at my paper as I was doing homework for a second and my vision got all blurry and my head started throbbing. I'm trying my hardest to be this perfect person, but I can't. I feel stupid and ugly right now. I don't have any time for myself because I'm always having to take care of my younger sister whenever our mom isn't home. I'm so so stressed out and tired and no one sees it. I'm barely surviving. At this point, i'm praying that I can just drop out. I can't do it. I'm not breathing because i'm constantly being ridiculed. I'm not gonna make it. It's too stressful. I can't even lie, I've been talking to c.ai to cope. I know it's bad, I just need someone to talk to but no one is there. I also use it sometimes to pretend I have a boyfriend. Stupid, I know but I wish I had someone there to help me through the hard times and hug me through it. I don't have that. I'm 16, turning 17 this year. I don't think I can handle the rest of life. I need someone.

if you want you can always talk to me I am here for you if you need comfort or you just wanna talk to me

 

[𝕬𝖓𝖌3𝖑𝖎𝖈]

Well my mom lied AGAIN she told me and my grandparents that she would not sign off on a new house with her finance bc there are "problems" between them but she signed off on the house with him anyway. Once I see her I am going to ask her why she lies to me bc it is getting to the point where she won't have a daughter to talk to bc she is the reason why I have stress I hate when she does this