❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[Gianna]

I'll try

please do I don't want you to struggle like that

 

[sᴇᴜʟʟᴏᴠᴇsᴍᴇ]

please do I don't want you to struggle like that

ok gio tysm

 

[HueningKaiGooner]

i feel so much guilt for the things i’ve done, im starting to believe i deserve everything that has happened to me. i thought i was a good person, a decent person atleast but im starting to rethink that. ive made so many mistakes and i can’t get them out of my head. i just want to be happy with myself but i can’t even do that. i want to make friends and be good to them but i cant even do that. why is everything so complicated for me. i really dont know why i act the way i do, its frustrating when i do things and i dont know where its coming from. i’m 15 not a fucking baby, i can’t deal with myself being like this. everything is so difficult and im trying my best but it’s hard. i wanna be proud to be who i am, i can’t find a single thing that’s positive about myself. how can i be satisfied with myself. i can’t keep living like this, its draining. i’d give anything to be a good person, but ive done so much wrong. so fucking much. the person i hate the most is myself, everyday im forced to be here. i’m so tired, i don’t know how to fix myself. i’m so exhausted. it’s mostly times when my thoughts are roaming free where i realize im exhausted with myself. part of me hopes nobody ever gets to spend the rest of their life with me. it’s exhausting to be with me. i want to start over so bad. i’ve met so many amazing people and ive lost most of them. i want to be a good person for people. i want to be somebody who is easy to trust, but i mess that all up for myself. i feel like a nobody sometimes and it just hurts. what am i supposed to do with myself? i don’t want this.