Sooo my parents are like soo weird like at times they are nice they can still be fucking rude to me my mom know she is mean 2 me bc she always says "you wonder why i talk sh!t to u" and they make fun bc i like k-pop and idfc what they think bout it ... but it bothers me how they talk about k-pop in my family being in the LGBTQI+ community its bad they say that those ppl are just confused and they are just following trend and they are homophobic VERY homophobic they say such mean things about that and i dont like it ofc i cant stand up to them bc of obvious reasons and my dad Sl@ps me in the face (a lot lately) when i get him pissed or say something dumb (i will admit ii can say dumb shit) and i get h!t with a wire (on my A$s nd if i try to block on my hands and legs ) when i get in trouble or my room is not clean although i feel like they hate me ik they love me (2 a point ofc) and it hurts a lot when they says things like "fucking dumbass" he hurts me a lot i remember one time he called me a "b!tch" and i never felt as hurt as i did when he said that and one time my own sibling called me that and i didnt realize it would hurt until it did but i still love that sibling VERYY much i told my mom and per usual she reported back to the boss (meaning she tells my dad EVERY SINGLE THING i say) he (my dad) only ever says sorry when he realizes he went to far (like when he h!t me with the back of a dr!ll) my dad can be a fvcking Biitch ass c0ck$uck3r but hes my dad no matter what he will always have a place in my heart even when he does things like rip up my pc or throw my stuff away but sometimes i do catch myself wishing they weren't my parents and i wished either i was dead orrr yk..... and i hate myself for wanting that but sometimes i cant fvcking do it with them they can be 2 much to deal with and they always make me feel bad liek when they say "there are kids who get m0l3$t3d by their parents or their parents $ell them or they are kids starving or on the street " sum sh!t like that and i cry almost every night and i wish i could be happy and bc of a certain some1 (on here) im happy ofc they (my parents) take the joy out some times but that certain someone makes my days brighter so yeahhhh sorryyy for this.
