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sanasideup · Dec 17, 2021

xiaothings said:
i want somewhere to drop all my mental health issues. here you go.
(tw: some caps and swearing)

so, you already know, i love a boy in my class. i really imagine fake scenarios, kissing him the morning before the school day starts, dating him, etc. but he keeps confusing me
like really everytime i talk to him it's so embarrasing, and i feel like he's the only person irl with who i act normal, even if i'm not ok
and there is that girl who he hugs so idek if he's dating her
i can't imagine confessing to him
and he keeps sending me eyes contact or signs (example: he is talking with my bff like they know each other since 100 years whereas last year they NEVER talked togheter)
you will never see this, but please, i just want you to talk to me.
i really don't know

me getting bad marks. 0/20. 0.5/5. 4/20. and my parents keeps STRESSING me and telling me "REVISE. REVISE. MATHS. SCIENCE. BIOLOGY." and not caring abt my mental health. my dad take my phone 2 weeks ago, and i have to talk to my bff on whatsapp to do our english homework. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? also, i had 1 hour of detention bc i forgot to do exercises a few times. WHY? anxiety. everytime i see my friends getting good marks and me, getting bad marks. and, IDK ANYMORE HOW TO LOOK OK?i feel like i'm out of control

so, i really love the winter season, but i didn't thought that that memories were gonna pop up in my head again. it's been 1 year now, and i'm still traumatized. when i act normal, when i laugh with my friends, when i talk, there's always this voice telling me "you look dumb" "stop acting normal" "you should be like [-]". all of this bc of some b-tches who betrayed me and insulted me for being myself. maybe i look pretty, happy, healthly, but no, just no. if you see me laughing, it's maybe a fake laugh. and i want people to understand that. and now, i really feel like an "attention-seeker" whereas i'm just talking about my life.

i don't think it's all, but i feel better when i talk, bc i'm this person who NEVER talks about their feelings. for example, no one in my school know that i fell in love with him. maybe someone guessed it, but i never talked about it.
aaah

i'm so sorry, that really sucks. it's a lot, and i hope things start getting better for you. if you ever need/want to talk, my pms are always open.

Yae Miko · Dec 17, 2021

sanasideup said:
i'm so sorry, that really sucks. it's a lot, and i hope things start getting better for you. if you ever need/want to talk, my pms are always open.

thanks, this really means a lot for me <3

sanasideup · Dec 17, 2021

xiaothings said:
thanks, this really means a lot for me <3

ofc! and just in case you're the type of person who doesn't talk abt their feelings bc they don't want to be a bother, you'd never be a bother. some things in life are more important than others, and mental health takes the cake.

Yae Miko · Dec 17, 2021

xiaothings said:
and there is that girl who he hugs so idek if he's dating her

PLSSS SHE SAW MY IG STORY WHERE I WAS TALKING ABOUT HIM AND NOW SHE'S ASKING ME WHO IS MY CRUSH
guys pls help idek what to do
should i tell her that it's him? i'm so scaredddd
edit: the way she is not saying him is sending me

edit again; she said his name but i said no lol
edit: im dying

translation:
>so you will not tell me

>yes bestie

>ughhhh

she really said the names of all the boys in the class and i say no to every single name lol
that was so weird and cringe-

edit again: i really asked her if she was into someone. taking risks lol

najingter · Dec 18, 2021

xiaothings said:
i want somewhere to drop all my mental health issues. here you go.
(tw: some caps and swearing)

so, you already know, i love a boy in my class. i really imagine fake scenarios, kissing him the morning before the school day starts, dating him, etc. but he keeps confusing me
like really everytime i talk to him it's so embarrasing, and i feel like he's the only person irl with who i act normal, even if i'm not ok
and there is that girl who he hugs so idek if he's dating her
i can't imagine confessing to him
and he keeps sending me eyes contact or signs (example: he is talking with my bff like they know each other since 100 years whereas last year they NEVER talked togheter)
you will never see this, but please, i just want you to talk to me.
i really don't know

me getting bad marks. 0/20. 0.5/5. 4/20. and my parents keeps STRESSING me and telling me "REVISE. REVISE. MATHS. SCIENCE. BIOLOGY." and not caring abt my mental health. my dad take my phone 2 weeks ago, and i have to talk to my bff on whatsapp to do our english homework. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? also, i had 1 hour of detention bc i forgot to do exercises a few times. WHY? anxiety. everytime i see my friends getting good marks and me, getting bad marks. and, IDK ANYMORE HOW TO LOOK OK?i feel like i'm out of control

so, i really love the winter season, but i didn't thought that that memories were gonna pop up in my head again. it's been 1 year now, and i'm still traumatized. when i act normal, when i laugh with my friends, when i talk, there's always this voice telling me "you look dumb" "stop acting normal" "you should be like [-]". all of this bc of some b-tches who betrayed me and insulted me for being myself. maybe i look pretty, happy, healthly, but no, just no. if you see me laughing, it's maybe a fake laugh. and i want people to understand that. and now, i really feel like an "attention-seeker" whereas i'm just talking about my life.

i don't think it's all, but i feel better when i talk, bc i'm this person who NEVER talks about their feelings. for example, no one in my school know that i fell in love with him. maybe someone guessed it, but i never talked about it.
aaah

omo-
ure beautiful, okay? i'm here if u ever need to talk. i know this is short but idrk what to say. /g

najingter · Dec 18, 2021

tw: maybe some swearing

i got like, a 57 for math??? and i cried in school. while going through answers, i cried in school.
and my mum thinks im not remorseful or anything bc im afraid to cry infront of her but she barely knows what im feeling these days
my sexuality, my fear (actually even im confused abt my fears but thats for another rant) and when she beat me, she was 'youve changed like u dont even cry when i hit u anymore' so at the time when she hit me it was 2am i was too tired to cry and will crying solve anything? will it make the beating less painful? no.

i know i said i was scared of snails and worms, but now i feel something else. im starting to suspect i have a fear of death, or a fear of...
idk, when i think about like puberty and stuff i feel weird. i feel scared. whats it even called? maybe a fear of change? idk

we talked abt sexuality (lgbtq) in tuition today. i seriously think i'm bi, or at least gay, but idk how i would tell my mum anything bc she's like against the community. like, i love her nd all, but....sometimes i just dont know what to feel or do. i just feel numb.

najingter · Dec 18, 2021

my sister's just being overly dramatic and i hate everyone

Zerø_21 · Dec 18, 2021

xiaothings said:
i want somewhere to drop all my mental health issues. here you go.
(tw: some caps and swearing)

so, you already know, i love a boy in my class. i really imagine fake scenarios, kissing him the morning before the school day starts, dating him, etc. but he keeps confusing me
like really everytime i talk to him it's so embarrasing, and i feel like he's the only person irl with who i act normal, even if i'm not ok
and there is that girl who he hugs so idek if he's dating her
i can't imagine confessing to him
and he keeps sending me eyes contact or signs (example: he is talking with my bff like they know each other since 100 years whereas last year they NEVER talked togheter)
you will never see this, but please, i just want you to talk to me.
i really don't know

me getting bad marks. 0/20. 0.5/5. 4/20. and my parents keeps STRESSING me and telling me "REVISE. REVISE. MATHS. SCIENCE. BIOLOGY." and not caring abt my mental health. my dad take my phone 2 weeks ago, and i have to talk to my bff on whatsapp to do our english homework. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? also, i had 1 hour of detention bc i forgot to do exercises a few times. WHY? anxiety. everytime i see my friends getting good marks and me, getting bad marks. and, IDK ANYMORE HOW TO LOOK OK?i feel like i'm out of control

so, i really love the winter season, but i didn't thought that that memories were gonna pop up in my head again. it's been 1 year now, and i'm still traumatized. when i act normal, when i laugh with my friends, when i talk, there's always this voice telling me "you look dumb" "stop acting normal" "you should be like [-]". all of this bc of some b-tches who betrayed me and insulted me for being myself. maybe i look pretty, happy, healthly, but no, just no. if you see me laughing, it's maybe a fake laugh. and i want people to understand that. and now, i really feel like an "attention-seeker" whereas i'm just talking about my life.

i don't think it's all, but i feel better when i talk, bc i'm this person who NEVER talks about their feelings. for example, no one in my school know that i fell in love with him. maybe someone guessed it, but i never talked about it.
aaah

I know the feels of having parents pressure you, mine do that a lot and I'm already trying to concentrate on concentrating, I hope things work out for you

Zerø_21 · Dec 18, 2021

najingter said:
tw: maybe some swearing

i got like, a 57 for math??? and i cried in school. while going through answers, i cried in school.
and my mum thinks im not remorseful or anything bc im afraid to cry infront of her but she barely knows what im feeling these days
my sexuality, my fear (actually even im confused abt my fears but thats for another rant) and when she beat me, she was 'youve changed like u dont even cry when i hit u anymore' so at the time when she hit me it was 2am i was too tired to cry and will crying solve anything? will it make the beating less painful? no.

i know i said i was scared of snails and worms, but now i feel something else. im starting to suspect i have a fear of death, or a fear of...
idk, when i think about like puberty and stuff i feel weird. i feel scared. whats it even called? maybe a fear of change? idk

we talked abt sexuality (lgbtq) in tuition today. i seriously think i'm bi, or at least gay, but idk how i would tell my mum anything bc she's like against the community. like, i love her nd all, but....sometimes i just dont know what to feel or do. i just feel numb.

I got a 56 in physics (and I ******* hate that subject)

yawnzzn · Dec 18, 2021

Lately I've felt like I'm not myself. Like I'm lying about who I am and the experiences I've been through. I feel so scared and anxious in public, this isn't anything new but it's heighted recently. I thought I was doing better. I thought I was doing better but I backtracked a lot and I don't understand why. As of recent, I've been having bad thoughts. About s/h-ing. I've never done it before I don't want to but I can't stop the feeling. It makes my arms itchy. I would never do it but I get scared sometimes, that I might. I feel like I've just been living outside of my own body. Like I'm here in someone else's life. This can't be me. This cannot be my life. I don't really like to talk about it. I just feel frustrated with these feelings. I know it's because of all the stress I've been going through lately. I'd rather get it all out by myself. I don't like asking people for help, I guess that's my own downfall. I know I can handle it. I'm strong. When I say "it's okay" I mean it.

sanasideup · Dec 18, 2021

najingter said:
tw: maybe some swearing

i got like, a 57 for math??? and i cried in school. while going through answers, i cried in school.
and my mum thinks im not remorseful or anything bc im afraid to cry infront of her but she barely knows what im feeling these days
my sexuality, my fear (actually even im confused abt my fears but thats for another rant) and when she beat me, she was 'youve changed like u dont even cry when i hit u anymore' so at the time when she hit me it was 2am i was too tired to cry and will crying solve anything? will it make the beating less painful? no.

i know i said i was scared of snails and worms, but now i feel something else. im starting to suspect i have a fear of death, or a fear of...
idk, when i think about like puberty and stuff i feel weird. i feel scared. whats it even called? maybe a fear of change? idk

we talked abt sexuality (lgbtq) in tuition today. i seriously think i'm bi, or at least gay, but idk how i would tell my mum anything bc she's like against the community. like, i love her nd all, but....sometimes i just dont know what to feel or do. i just feel numb.

if you ever need to talk, my pms are always open. and i understand abt the unsupportive parents, and there's nothing to say but it sucks and i'm sorry.

sanasideup · Dec 18, 2021

haoluvr said:
Lately I've felt like I'm not myself. Like I'm lying about who I am and the experiences I've been through. I feel so scared and anxious in public, this isn't anything new but it's heighted recently. I thought I was doing better. I thought I was doing better but I backtracked a lot and I don't understand why. As of recent, I've been having bad thoughts. About s/h-ing. I've never done it before I don't want to but I can't stop the feeling. It makes my arms itchy. I would never do it but I get scared sometimes, that I might. I feel like I've just been living outside of my own body. Like I'm here in someone else's life. This can't be me. This cannot be my life. I don't really like to talk about it. I just feel frustrated with these feelings. I know it's because of all the stress I've been going through lately. I'd rather get it all out by myself. I don't like asking people for help, I guess that's my own downfall. I know I can handle it. I'm strong. When I say "it's okay" I mean it.

if you ever need to talk, my pms are always open.

pika_chuu · Dec 18, 2021

I’m so freaking tired of seeing you play the victim. You’re not, and you never have been. It breaks me inside when I see you posting that you "fall for the wrong people". No. I was wrong for falling for you. Now I know why we broke up. It wasn’t just the toxicity, you’re a two faced liar.

Yae Miko · Dec 19, 2021

xiaothings said:
edit again: i really asked her if she was into someone. taking risks lol

she said "i don't think so"
PLS KSKSKSKSKSSKKS-

najingter · Dec 19, 2021

xiaothings said:
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she said "i don't think so"
PLS KSKSKSKSKSSKKS-

oh my-

Yae Miko · Dec 19, 2021

najingter said:
oh my-

ikr - - -

Lucifer · Dec 19, 2021

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sanasideup · Dec 19, 2021

If you ever need to talk, my pms are always open!

Lucifer said:
I told my friends that I you thought oof that I stopped sh but im questioning why worry about me like it's so confusing apart from being stressed and depressed so uh but alsoI've thought of doing it sometime again but eh I don't to do it again

Lucifer · Dec 19, 2021

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pika_chuu · Dec 24, 2021

The person I like... Likes someone else. But I'm the matchmaker who makes other people happy, so I won't say anything. I guess it's enough to just see him happy.

No, that's a lie. My heart feels empty... But I can't let my own emotions get in the way.

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