crazy how those feelings improved after i broke up with him!!! i don’t know if they’re like directly related buuuttturjshdhdh while dating him i had this feeling of like idk how to explain but i felt really disconnected from everything basically!!! i also felt like i wasn’t a real person and like it felt like i wasn’t making my own decisions everyday felt like im playing a character in a video game THATS THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN IT
it felt like i didn’t really make decisions myself ykwim!!! but oh em gee those feelings are getting better everyday IM SO HAPPY BRO