❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[yvessznʚଓ]

 

[izyun]

 

[amourenha]

I think my depression is getting worse..
cuz its getting to a point where I don’t feel anything..

 

[amourenha]

all smiley on the outside but
sad and depressed in the inside..

I hate having depression.

 

[amourenha]

too many people bully me mostly cuz of my weight..
I need to work out more. And learn how to apply makeup
cuz I’m ugly.

 

[Seogi]

Thank you.

Anytime, take care of yourself, yeah? Always vent to me if you need.

 

[amourenha]

sometimes I wish I never was born..

 

[amourenha]

got hit today; cried..

 

[amourenha]

got hit today; cried..

+
got told to ”grow tf up”..

 

[amourenha]

I miss being happy..

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

I'm not sure if this is the right place for this but I also don't want to ask it on reddit (I'm honestly a little scared of that platform tbh), but this has been in my head for a little while and I've just been wondering about it. Long story short this girl and I have been friends for 13 years (14 in December), we went to Kindergarten together, our parents were in the same friend group and follow each other on facebook (so if she really needed to get a hold of me she defiantly could).

I know she's training to be a nurse and to get into school but over this spring and summer I just felt like she's been politely trying to shut me out, I've tried to talk with her about us being distant and if there was anything I did wrong or if me coming out to her as a WLW was maybe just a bit to much for her (as I knew she was often quiet about that stuff and didn't want her Grandma hearing about any of that if it happened to slip out of my mouth), but each time I've tried to bring it up it goes quiet.

I won't explain to much but I do deal with body issues and other stuff so I decided to move in with my Dad instead of my Mum to finish my highschool year and I can't help but wonder if this is it for us. Often times, I'm that kind of friend to send random gifts, write letters and stuff like that as during some of my darkest days I wasn't always the kindest human nor good at keeping relationships. Even during birthdays we would stay up/auto send the messages to each other so the first message you received when you woke up would be from me/us. So it just feels weird to get absolutely no response at all for Four months.

How would you take this? Is she just trying to say hey, maybe we've grown apart and so have our interests? I've always said we were best friends and I have apologized for my actions during those times which she's told me I don't have to worry about as she knew I was struggling and she didn't handle it the best either. But part of me still wants to try for this friendship you know?

But at the same point I'm also at the point in my life where I'm kinda done putting 100% into relationships and not getting treated that great either, I am so ready to start trusting people again and getting out there. I guess part of me just wants an honest and clear answer to.

Anyways, I have to go wash the berries I just picked from the garden, hopefully this is the better place to post it, I might come back to edit it so it makes a little more sense later.

I posted this in July. Sadly I still haven't heard from her, and my therapist says that is likly the case of what's happening. but i still feel very sad and disappointed

 

[𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺_𝘴𝘢𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘢♡]

just sad again

 

[kaitlyn]

genuinely I have such bad body dysm_rph!a (typing this on school chromebook , had to censor to not get flagged <//3) my friends keep saying that they wish they were built like me and stuff like that but I honestly don't understand why. I feel like I'm way too big, everytime I step on the scale I get so depressed I hate this

 

[𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺_𝘴𝘢𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘢♡]

i wish i wasn't such a fake
smiling for my kids and pretending to be happy and the next minute im sobbing on the floor of my room

 

[chaeru ₊˚✧]

i wish i wasn't such a fake
smiling for my kids and pretending to be happy and the next minute im sobbing on the floor of my room

hopefully you get better

 

[amourenha]

i wish i wasn't such a fake
smiling for my kids and pretending to be happy and the next minute im sobbing on the floor of my room

feel better soon</3

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

i wish i wasn't such a fake
smiling for my kids and pretending to be happy and the next minute im sobbing on the floor of my room

life totally sucks i get that, idk if its possible and I do know/understand its out of reach for many, but therapy really helped my dad when he was feeling the same way. I hope you can find someone to help that listens, being a parent is tough enough.

 

[Weirdo2700]

Currently going through a lot and overthinking.... Just needing some comfort or at least acknowledgment of my existence.... Being ignored is not fun, but it is what it is. I have to get over it... I have to suck it up and put on my happy face... It's so hard sometimes, especially when I'm constantly bullied and forgotten. I mean, I don't care if you don't care about me, but still, you could at least not say those things or give me those looks. People HARM themselves because of it. (I don't but still) I've lost friends because they have. It hurts to think of how people are these days.

 

[razzy]

Currently going through a lot and overthinking.... Just needing some comfort or at least acknowledgment of my existence.... Being ignored is not fun, but it is what it is. I have to get over it... I have to suck it up and put on my happy face... It's so hard sometimes, especially when I'm constantly bullied and forgotten. I mean, I don't care if you don't care about me, but still, you could at least not say those things or give me those looks. People HARM themselves because of it. (I don't but still) I've lost friends because they have. It hurts to think of how people are these days.

I really really do hope u feel better... I care about u, so that makes at least one person who acknowledges u! its hard to always look happy or at least just not sad in general, praying that things get better for you..

 

[StarlightSilverCrown2]

I couldn't find a better thread so please don't take this the wrong way or misunderstand that this thread is a great space. I am just really frustrated right now and I wasn't sure where else to post this. And is becoming an issue again after Ian's tweet he posted yesterday.

For those who don't know, there's been issues in the DREAMERS fandom for years now, ever since we found out what a di ck Scott (Rem) actually is, and how he treated everyone pretty terribly, coming out with a terrible apology only after Dabin (DPR Live) cussed him out at a live show, and now more and more things are coming out, dividing a decent part of the fandom. Its exhausting and part of the reason I left and supporting quietly.

Don't get me wrong, I love the idea of protecting your idols and as someone who really loves and cherishes Ian I get, I really do, but people are trying to take it into their own hands. Swearing and tweeting at Rem (which was someone they supported whole heartly like the rest of us btw), like it was a personal issue and it affects them. NO it doesn't it affects the team at DPR, the managers, the people who got treated unfairly and didn't get paid, things stolen stuff like that. Show support where you can but people are targeting others and harassing others for supporting Dabin (who did nothing wrong, and is just purusing his own career away from DPR), while people are making statements, 'I am here for Christian (Ian) only, if that upsets you block and unfollow me', and its just to much.

I'm not sure if anyone else sees it the same way I do, but people feel entitled, 'they have the best music taste because they know dpr', or 'i followed dpr before fuck rem started' and its so stu pid. Okay? so? I followed Ian when he had three songs released and had the second round of copies for the MITO album.