bro why tf cant i leave ppl alone
like why am i so clingy
ugh
why oh why do i ask why sm?
why cant i disappear but like not in a kidnap way but like on my own but like make ppl happy?
why cant i be like idk..... perfect
WHY TF DID HE LIKE IT AND NOT SAY LIKE OH IDK HELLO BACK????
why did i suddenly appreciate my father all of a sudden?
BUT THEN IM HAPPY??? maybeee cause he got me myyyy amazingly awesum shoes and now i will actually be 5 feet!!! and not be called a ugly short border hopping midget who JUST found out she has ONE dimple (my cousins call me that)
"you need to do better"
"you need to get your grades up"
"You need to start playing in sports"
"You need start doing stuff around the house"
"you need worry about school not boys"
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You don't know what's going on. You don't know anything. Yea, I don't talk to you. I wonder why I don't. you just Yell at me and say "I understand" but you don't.
they teach not to talk to strangers, how to fight when in danger, but what about in our houses?
where the lights may be all on? you hurt me dad, and ill never forgive you. i still have nightmares.
i cant even sit next to you without worrying about your hands and what they might do to me.
why cant you love me the way you loved angel? what about the way you love your job?
i would say the way you love mom but i know you don't love her. you cant love anyone but yourself
its sad that you'll hurt a kid just to prove your power. fuck you dad. if i commit, its your fault
ouch
"I'm just trying to spare ur feelings so u don't get hurt"
***** from what he did to me, I don't think I could possibly hurt any more than I am rn
whats hurting is that ur not telling me
wanna spare my feelings?
tell me what it is
cuz u are not doing me a favor by not
You act like I don't exist. You act like you never flirted with me, held my hand, and joked around with me. All of that? For what? Laughs? Did you actually mean it? Did you like me for real or was it for laughs?
Sometimes, I am glad I met you but other times I hate that I met you
Fuck you
Fuck your cute smile
Fuck your cute laugh
all of his friends are telling me he still has feelings for me.
but how??
he broke up with me
he acted like he didn't care when he saw me sobbing in school abt him
he avoids all eye contact and contact w/ me as much as possible
and he knows I still like him/care for him
so how does he still like me??
maybe its just the patheticness of him asking to get back with someone he brokeup with first
or maybe he just doesn't want to hurt me
whatever it is
its so confusing
cuz he knows damn well that if he reached out to me, or texted me, or talked to me in person, I would still go back to him
even after all he did to me I still love him
but I gotta remember
God always brings the right people back
ironic thing here though, he's an Athetist lmao
but aside from that
I rly hope he comes back
and we can try again