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[galaxies]

one of my best friends is moving classes after winter break, so..
oh well.
another way to make me depressed.

another friend ill possibly lose.

i've already been ghosted/lost most of my friends

 

[galaxies]

so..
i just sat down and one of my friends (I guess?) said "yay, we have ri, we have a smart student at our table"
and my ex-bestie got jealous and said "so i'm ur calling me a cockroach?" and he said "I said one of the smartest" and she said "two of the smartest" and he was like "okay" and she said "thanks"

 

[galaxies]

so..
i just sat down and one of my friends (I guess?) said "yay, we have ri, we have a smart student at our table"
and my ex-bestie got jealous and said "so i'm ur calling me a cockroach?" and he said "I said one of the smartest" and she said "two of the smartest" and he was like "okay" and she said "thanks"

then i'm pretty sure she looked at me weirdly but idgaf.
and she also said "excuses, excuses"
like wth is wrong? he was just saying his opinion..

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

So, Basically. He knows it all now.
And now, I'm getting to lower point in this year where I just fucking [ISPOILER]Want to cut myself and fucking yell. [/ISPOILER] But I can't! Because I'm fucking stupid.
And when I think about it, Yeah. I do like him.
But then i'm at a tricky situation where he might like me back or not. Which is why I should've never even liked him.

Because there's no guarantee that he likes me.

And he makes me nervous, He's a nice guy. Very Genuine.

Thing is. I'm too scared (of everything). I cry when adults yell at me (mostly)
And I cry.
everyday.

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

they're pressuring me into asking him out..I said I MIGHT, but not I'm not going to
I'm scared. He's so nice/funny/sweet
I shouldn't have told them (my friends)
They keep "making" fun of me for it
Me and him have this thing where we say "hi" "bye" "have a good day"...ykyk
One of my friends keep saying "hola" "bye" to him when she knows it's OUR thing
--

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

The joke "Going chronically insane" Is something we have.
It's our joke.

That was the first kind of conversation I had w him.

"Are you going chronically insane?"

That's when he smiled at me for the first time.

I like him alot.
I want him to feel better.


I'm so fucking useless to him.

 

[galaxies]

i'm changing..
like i feel like i'm more self-assured and i care more about my health and self. (which is good because i always put others first then me)
i'm proud of it.

 

[galaxies]

i'm changing..
like i feel like i'm more self-assured and i care more about my health and self. (which is good because i always put others first then me)
i'm proud of it.

i think i am anyway, some ppl say i'm not.
but i think i am
i need to stop using others opinions and follow my own path tbh

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

I'll never forget how stupid in love I felt
I'll always regret how I couldn't ever tell
That you walked a little faster, left me behind
Kissed me with somebody else in mind
I loved you so much
That I settled for less
Oh, you were my everything
I was your second best, mm

So fucking true.

I loved my ex. I did love her.
But Then after sometime, My mental health got out of hand, I broke up w her.

I guess breaking up with her was a crime. smh

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

they're pressuring me into asking him out..I said I MIGHT, but not I'm not going to
I'm scared. He's so nice/funny/sweet
I shouldn't have told them (my friends)
They keep "making" fun of me for it
Me and him have this thing where we say "hi" "bye" "have a good day"...ykyk
One of my friends keep saying "hola" "bye" to him when she knows it's OUR thing
--

Me being Me (a stupid ass person) said I would ask him out then said I wouldn't
Y'all don't get it
He's a very nice person but he hangs out with people I hate they used bully me

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

Honestly.
My friend did tell him I like him.

She told me he said "Oh Idk them"
....

The amount of times I felt like crying about that.
and then when she described me he js said "okay"

What the fuck?

I'm so fucking useless to him that he doesn't even Know me..
Why can't he tell? Why can't I just fucking be noticed? Why can't I Be pretty?

So then, I guess. Idk, He clearly doesn't like me, nor does he know me. So, Back to strangers?

 

[izyun]

what happened?

its nothing.

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

Honestly.
My friend did tell him I like him.

She told me he said "Oh Idk them"
....

The amount of times I felt like crying about that.
and then when she described me he js said "okay"

What the fuck?

I'm so fucking useless to him that he doesn't even Know me..
Why can't he tell? Why can't I just fucking be noticed? Why can't I Be pretty?

So then, I guess. Idk, He clearly doesn't like me, nor does he know me. So, Back to strangers?

I feel stupid, Dumb, Ugly.

I liked him, I still do. But he doesn't feel the same, No he's not obligated to.
I feel like crying all over again.


What is it? Why do I feel okay w him?


And now, I miss someone again..

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

its nothing.

u sure?

 

[jjangwony]

I feel stupid, Dumb, Ugly.

I liked him, I still do. But he doesn't feel the same, No he's not obligated to.
I feel like crying all over again.


What is it? Why do I feel okay w him?


And now, I miss someone again..

im sorry. how are you doing now?

 

[🌸⋅ ☆𝙆𝙄𝙏𝙏𝙄 ୧ ‧₊˚ 🌸 ⋅ ☆]

im sorry. how are you doing now?

i'm doing a bit better. Hbu?

 

[jellyfinn]

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Lately I feel so tired, and worn out and I'm always anxious to the point that i'm nauseous.. because of my boyfriends. (We are in a poly relationship, the three of us.) And one of my boyfreinds,, lets call him "M". So, M broke up with us recently,, because me and my other bf, lets call him "A", seemed like a better match and he said we seemed better without him. He said we lost our spark and i cried every night after that. I felt like i caused the whole thing. Well, M is back recently. And i really dont know how to feel about it.. like, im sure i still like him but i just see him different after all that. and.. him and A seem to talk SO effortlessly. they talk all the time and they can flirt again like nothing ever happened and it makes me want to cry. I hate being like this, i hate being so anxious to mess up. I want to go back in time when M was so sweet to me. He's kinda changed now,,, hes more offputting and i hate it. i hate it. I want it like how it used to be. please.

 

[izyun]

u sure?

yes.

 

[1fool4you]

ive been focusing on my work recently. i feel better now.

 

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

i just want to rise up stronger
-
why do I feel so sleepy?
so dead inside lowkey

I start doubting myself in the only thing I thought I was good at
I start growing tired
who can truly understand me?
sometimes I just wanna scream and let it out
but I remember I have to just keep quiet and get on because like is like that which fucking sucks