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[GowonMINT(locked out of other)]

Spoiler: Ha,

you think I'm lying don't you? I'm sorry. But I will put you first always. Even if you don't like me. Or think I'm "weird" or a lied.

 

[GowonMINT(locked out of other)]

Idk if she is pranking me or not. The last prank he sounded genuine but he wasn't. She sounds genuine be it might be a fake.

Spoiler: The real mess

I once again banged my head against the wall before my mom took me to therapy. I passed out after doing so for over 10 minutes. When we got to the therapist I told the therapist in exact words "She says I'm crazy. So am I?" She ingored my question. We talked, I lied. I said I was fine and that I didn't know why I was there. When we got home I locked myself in the bathroom and now I have 3 or 4 scars. I sat on the roof. (I have access through my sisters room she wasn't there) I did this when they took my siblings out to go shop. I haven't ate since Friday. The only thing I have had was a mug of hot coco. I don't know if I want this life anymore. I'm trying so hard but i always put others first and I can never say No. I can't do it anymore. Will they even miss me? I wwant to end it. But you guys will talk me out of it. I'm so sorry if I was ever rude to you, if I was being selfish and all of the bad things. I lost a pound. I'm kind of happy about that 77lbs. That's all.

 

[anmybeloved]

Spoiler

I recently got diagnosed with Histrionic Personality Disorder (its hard to explain so I suggest you look it up) and its been hard coping with it. Im didnt want to tell anybody because people may think less of me judging by the behaviours this disorder includes. It doesnt change my value as a person so Im mad that my family is treating me badly because of it. They act like Im some murderous narcissist, and it pisses me of.

People shouldn't judge you for your disorders,if they do then they're just stupid. Your families just stupid, you're still the same person you are before you got diagnosed, some paper/documents doesn't make you a bad person, because you're not a bad person.

 

[Solarium]

People shouldn't judge you for your disorders,if they do then they're just stupid. Your families just stupid, you're still the same person you are before you got diagnosed, some paper/documents doesn't make you a bad person, because you're not a bad person.

Thats what ive been trying to tell them, but they bring up how people with HPD can be manipulative aand sometimes fake emotions. Like, me being diagnosed doenst mean im automatically manipulative or evil. Yes, sometimes I exhibit those behavours, but that doesnt make me less human or the less or Arisha I was before my diagnosis. Nothing against my younger sister or older sister, theyre both sweethearts, but my parents and brother really are stupid.

 

[GowonMINT(locked out of other)]

Spoiler: Warning: *******

I once again banged my head against the wall when everyone else was sleeping. I passed out, woke up and then I did all of that for about 3 times again. I took around 7 binedrill's. But I'm still here. I watched another Channies Room. Didn't help as much as it used to. Then, it got worse. There was blood all over my arms. I was crying. But then, I started hitting my head on the wall again and I was asleep until 4. But I woke up again. And I was sobbing uncontrollably. I was repeating they all hate me. She hates me i hate myself. Sorry that you read this. You probably don't believe me.

 

[Love_alize071313]

Spoiler: TW

I never considered myself a person who is easily hated, or a person who people avoid. I just felt like i was a normal person in a dull life. But now, no one is speaking to me irl, the O N E person who actually talks to me now hasn't messaged me since last monday, I wonder now if people liked me in the first place, I turn around now sometimes and feel like people are laughing at me and maybe that they think im stupid, because that's what mom tells me all the damn time, but i gotten used to her calling me names and such but to hear it come from someone else too, it hurts and they're not even telling me straight up, it's almost like i know they're telling me this without even coming up to me y'know? Am i making sense? I try to be as nice to everyone as i can so they can have a good day but whenever i turn around i get attacked. I thought what goes around comes around, why haven't I gotten something good back from those people in my life??? Do they really hate me...? Was I really being annoying when I thought I was being helpful and kind? Anyway I'm sorry you had to read that, i just felt suffocated recently. Sorry again. Kay bye

 

[saaylhy]

Spoiler: TW

I never considered myself a person who is easily hated, or a person who people avoid. I just felt like i was a normal person in a dull life. But now, no one is speaking to me irl, the O N E person who actually talks to me now hasn't messaged me since last monday, I wonder now if people liked me in the first place, I turn around now sometimes and feel like people are laughing at me and maybe that they think im stupid, because that's what mom tells me all the damn time, but i gotten used to her calling me names and such but to hear it come from someone else too, it hurts and they're not even telling me straight up, it's almost like i know they're telling me this without even coming up to me y'know? Am i making sense? I try to be as nice to everyone as i can so they can have a good day but whenever i turn around i get attacked. I thought what goes around comes around, why haven't I gotten something good back from those people in my life??? Do they really hate me...? Was I really being annoying when I thought I was being helpful and kind? Anyway I'm sorry you had to read that, i just felt suffocated recently. Sorry again. Kay bye

You're not dumb. You're not annoying. You'e just a sweet candy kind super superhelpful person, don't listen to the haters. They don't deserve you. If you're feeling really bad, my PMs are open!!<3

 

[K-fan_2003]

Spoiler: TW

I never considered myself a person who is easily hated, or a person who people avoid. I just felt like i was a normal person in a dull life. But now, no one is speaking to me irl, the O N E person who actually talks to me now hasn't messaged me since last monday, I wonder now if people liked me in the first place, I turn around now sometimes and feel like people are laughing at me and maybe that they think im stupid, because that's what mom tells me all the damn time, but i gotten used to her calling me names and such but to hear it come from someone else too, it hurts and they're not even telling me straight up, it's almost like i know they're telling me this without even coming up to me y'know? Am i making sense? I try to be as nice to everyone as i can so they can have a good day but whenever i turn around i get attacked. I thought what goes around comes around, why haven't I gotten something good back from those people in my life??? Do they really hate me...? Was I really being annoying when I thought I was being helpful and kind? Anyway I'm sorry you had to read that, i just felt suffocated recently. Sorry again. Kay bye

Do you wanna pm and talk about it hun?

 

[K-fan_2003]

Spoiler: Warning: *******

I once again banged my head against the wall when everyone else was sleeping. I passed out, woke up and then I did all of that for about 3 times again. I took around 7 binedrill's. But I'm still here. I watched another Channies Room. Didn't help as much as it used to. Then, it got worse. There was blood all over my arms. I was crying. But then, I started hitting my head on the wall again and I was asleep until 4. But I woke up again. And I was sobbing uncontrollably. I was repeating they all hate me. She hates me i hate myself. Sorry that you read this. You probably don't believe me.

Do you wanna pm me, I am so sorry.

 

[Love_alize071313]

Do you wanna pm and talk about it hun?

No, thank you. People say "let's talk" but i never find anything to say. :/ Sorry.

 

[lynch.]

Spoiler: :)

the one person i want to talk to never has time for me
he never can find the time to talk to me
it's been 3 months since he's called me for longer than 5 minutes
he always answers my messages a few days late
he always is busy calling his other friends
he always is doing something else that he can't call me while doing
and if something happened to me, he would say "sorry, can't talk right now"
but will be right on top of it if something were to happen to any of his discord friends
one time i called him crying because that was the 2nd time that i had attempted
"can't talk right now Abby, i'm talking to my gf"
and hung up on me without letting me say anything more
i think he just doesn't wanna talk to me anymore
and he's just tired of me and my problems
and at this point it hurts so bad i just want to scream and punch a billion holes in my wall
because he said he would always be there for me
he said he would never leave my side
he said he would always be able to talk to me if i needed it
but now he's so distant
and now im alone again
i just want to feel loved again
but he obviously doesn't need to feel loved by me
because he has his other friends he's known for a few months that he would die for
and then he has me, who he's known for 9 years.. but that's not important, right?
again, he's probably just tired of me.
he probably wouldn't wanna be around me bcause i'm such an unstable person
and all i ever wanna do is lay in bed and cry
i just hope that one day
my body gives out from lack of food
and i don't wake up.
and im sure that nobody would notice or believe it.
"don't worry about her, she's just faking it for attention."

 

[K-fan_2003]

No, thank you. People say "let's talk" but i never find anything to say. :/ Sorry.

It’s ok

 

[GowonMINT(locked out of other)]

Spoiler: :)

the one person i want to talk to never has time for me
he never can find the time to talk to me
it's been 3 months since he's called me for longer than 5 minutes
he always answers my messages a few days late
he always is busy calling his other friends
he always is doing something else that he can't call me while doing
and if something happened to me, he would say "sorry, can't talk right now"
but will be right on top of it if something were to happen to any of his discord friends
one time i called him crying because that was the 2nd time that i had attempted
"can't talk right now Abby, i'm talking to my gf"
and hung up on me without letting me say anything more
i think he just doesn't wanna talk to me anymore
and he's just tired of me and my problems
and at this point it hurts so bad i just want to scream and punch a billion holes in my wall
because he said he would always be there for me
he said he would never leave my side
he said he would always be able to talk to me if i needed it
but now he's so distant
and now im alone again
i just want to feel loved again
but he obviously doesn't need to feel loved by me
because he has his other friends he's known for a few months that he would die for
and then he has me, who he's known for 9 years.. but that's not important, right?
again, he's probably just tired of me.
he probably wouldn't wanna be around me bcause i'm such an unstable person
and all i ever wanna do is lay in bed and cry
i just hope that one day
my body gives out from lack of food
and i don't wake up.
and im sure that nobody would notice or believe it.
"don't worry about her, she's just faking it for attention."

I don't want you to feel less of yourself. I'm here for you even if he's not just remember that ash.

 

[lynch.]

I don't want you to feel less of yourself. I'm here for you even if he's not just remember that ash.

thanks

 

[GowonMINT(locked out of other)]

thanks

No problem.

 

[Love_alize071313]

Spoiler: :)

the one person i want to talk to never has time for me
he never can find the time to talk to me
it's been 3 months since he's called me for longer than 5 minutes
he always answers my messages a few days late
he always is busy calling his other friends
he always is doing something else that he can't call me while doing
and if something happened to me, he would say "sorry, can't talk right now"
but will be right on top of it if something were to happen to any of his discord friends
one time i called him crying because that was the 2nd time that i had attempted
"can't talk right now Abby, i'm talking to my gf"
and hung up on me without letting me say anything more
i think he just doesn't wanna talk to me anymore
and he's just tired of me and my problems
and at this point it hurts so bad i just want to scream and punch a billion holes in my wall
because he said he would always be there for me
he said he would never leave my side
he said he would always be able to talk to me if i needed it
but now he's so distant
and now im alone again
i just want to feel loved again
but he obviously doesn't need to feel loved by me
because he has his other friends he's known for a few months that he would die for
and then he has me, who he's known for 9 years.. but that's not important, right?
again, he's probably just tired of me.
he probably wouldn't wanna be around me bcause i'm such an unstable person
and all i ever wanna do is lay in bed and cry
i just hope that one day
my body gives out from lack of food
and i don't wake up.
and im sure that nobody would notice or believe it.
"don't worry about her, she's just faking it for attention."

I'm sorry about that Ash. He don't deserve you're company and I'm sorry if it's not nough but you can always talk to me about sht

 

[lynch.]

I'm sorry about that Ash. He don't deserve you're company and I'm sorry if it's not nough but you can always talk to me about sht

thanks

 

[Love_alize071313]

thanks

Of course Ash.

 

[saaylhy]

Spoiler: :)

the one person i want to talk to never has time for me
he never can find the time to talk to me
it's been 3 months since he's called me for longer than 5 minutes
he always answers my messages a few days late
he always is busy calling his other friends
he always is doing something else that he can't call me while doing
and if something happened to me, he would say "sorry, can't talk right now"
but will be right on top of it if something were to happen to any of his discord friends
one time i called him crying because that was the 2nd time that i had attempted
"can't talk right now Abby, i'm talking to my gf"
and hung up on me without letting me say anything more
i think he just doesn't wanna talk to me anymore
and he's just tired of me and my problems
and at this point it hurts so bad i just want to scream and punch a billion holes in my wall
because he said he would always be there for me
he said he would never leave my side
he said he would always be able to talk to me if i needed it
but now he's so distant
and now im alone again
i just want to feel loved again
but he obviously doesn't need to feel loved by me
because he has his other friends he's known for a few months that he would die for
and then he has me, who he's known for 9 years.. but that's not important, right?
again, he's probably just tired of me.
he probably wouldn't wanna be around me bcause i'm such an unstable person
and all i ever wanna do is lay in bed and cry
i just hope that one day
my body gives out from lack of food
and i don't wake up.
and im sure that nobody would notice or believe it.
"don't worry about her, she's just faking it for attention."

I'm so sorry abt that Ash. If you want to talk, i'm here<3
nd do not say that. you're love here. stay here <3

 

[lynch.]

I'm so sorry abt that Ash. If you want to talk, i'm here<3
nd do not say that. you're love here. stay here <3

thanks.