I honestly hate my life. I used to be so confident, loud (like, I honestly would be able to hear me from the other side of a room), and most importantly I didn't give a flop abt what people thought of me. Welp, fast forward, and I'm insecure asf. I used to be friends with this girl, let's call her uhhhh bob! Well, when I was super confident, she was quiet, calm etc, but now, idk what happened but now she is super confident and loud and I'm insecure and quiet. Of course, I have no problem with the fact that she's confident (like I'm happy for her!!) but I feel like everybody is always paying attention to her whenever she says something but always ignore me. I always feel like nobody actually listens to me because, honestly ppl are always ignoring me and my existence. And it just hurts. Bob, has her own duo and friend group!! Which I'm happy for her ofc, but I don't have any friends in my form group/class (whatever U wanna call it). I'm starting to think bob is only talking to me whenever her friends aren't around, which hurts a lot. I also feel like my current friends in a different class are starting to get tired of me.. wow my life's a MESS. I threw away all my confidence to try and be liked by bob (because at the time, let's js say I didn't know how to control my emotions back then..) and because I was always quiet, I lost ALL of my confidence and like donated it to her?? Idk.. but I hate my life... I just want to be who I was again.. I've completely forgotten how too.. now I'm super introverted, quiet, insecure, and have no self esteem AT ALL. I also overthink, ALOT. I hate it sm.. I hate myself sm.. how can I ACC be confident and loud and myself again...? Bc honestly, I js want to be listened to...