I'm scared to go to school after chickening out, ppl always think im weak and tbh I am, im too scared to snap back because if I do that, I'll probably still be bullied
tw// eating disorder and some racism so, i’ve been struggling with how my body looks. i guess i’m not necessarily “fat” but i compare myself to other girls at my school (and kpop idols who are probably unhealthy) and feel bad about myself. so i decided to skip lunch everyday. when that wasn’t working i decided to work out at home (new flash: i didn’t bc im too scared of my mom walking in on me). and it doesn’t help that people at my school call me slurs like n*gga, monkey, and call me white bc of my skin (btw im black, but my skin is a lighter brown.) i always feel like there’s something wrong with me, like i don’t belong anywhere. i went through a really long state of sadness. i started lashing out at people and instead of anyone asking me if i was ok, they just acted like i was the bad guy. so, i stopped talking and mainly just listened to music and played genshin impact. i haven’t actually talked to anyone about this before. so yeah thanks for reading my rant <3