❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[knnovation]

tani please dont do what i think youre gonna do, without you idk if its ever gonna be the same, we need you here so please dont do anything to harm yourself and if you need someone to talk to, im always here

There’s more mods here then just me, I’m sure you guys will be fine.

 

[ur.local.dino]

There’s more mods here then just me, I’m sure you guys will be fine.

but no mods like u. that’s what makes u so enjoyable and fun to hang out w, bc u are ur own person. without u, the forums rlly wouldn’t be the same. and i mean it. <3

 

[izyun]

Sometimes i find it hard to open up to anyone here, though there are some people, its like at least 2 or 3, sometimes i feel like im treated like the therapist friend, tho i dont mind, a lot of those "therapist friends" dont get the same treatment back that theyll give others which honestly hurts. Tho i cant force anyone to give me the same treatment, i can only wish and hope. This is basically the main reason i always bottle up my emotions and the reason i want take a break. Sometimes i also just want to leave forever bc sometimes i cant handle it. Even though others may not think so, sometimes i feel like i dont belong here, like i shouldnt even have signed up to this website

gonna add something to this, one of the reasons that also made me bottle my emotions was the fact i had previously posted here before about how i wondered how it would be like to bang my head against a wall repeatedly and how i wanted to know how it felt to get hit by a car, though i dont want to point fingers, but the fact nobody supported me through this made me not want to show my emotions even more bc i thought nobody cared for me and only saw me as the person everybody runs to for help, now i realize people surprisingly care for me so i try to put this behind me but ill forever think this is what started it all

 

[izyun]

There’s more mods here then just me, I’m sure you guys will be fine.

but youre one of those mods that actually makes you feel like you belong, i wont be fine without and nobody else will too bc youre so funny and caring

 

[knnovation]

but youre one of those mods that actually makes you feel like you belong, i wont be fine without and nobody else will too bc youre so funny and caring

I guess so, more than likely I’m going to fail like I always do. I just have to try one more time, because I can’t do this anymore. You guys will be fine, everyone will forget about me within a couple weeks anyway. And on the off chance that I do fail, I’ll probably be back on here shortly after.

 

[izyun]

I guess so, more than likely I’m going to fail like I always do. I just have to try one more time, because I can’t do this anymore. You guys will be fine, everyone will forget about me within a couple weeks anyway. And on the off chance that I do fail, I’ll probably be back on here shortly after.

Tani please just dont, i honestly wont even be the same without you, i mean nobody will and we'll never forget you and we cant take any chances so please im actually begging you rn

 

[knnovation]

Tani please just dont, i honestly wont even be the same without you, i mean nobody will and we'll never forget you and we cant take any chances so please im actually begging you rn

 

[izyun]

Tani, im serious

 

[Seogi]

Does anybody else here suffer from Sensory Issue Disorder?

 

[izyun]

Does anybody else here suffer from Sensory Issue Disorder?

Can you describe what that is?

 

[ur.local.dino]

Does anybody else here suffer from Sensory Issue Disorder?

i haven’t been diagnosed or wtv but i have a few symptoms of it

 

[Seogi]

Can you describe what that is?

Not being able to touch or wear certain clothing and also not taking off clothes for appropriate situations because of the feel.

 

[Seogi]

For example. I cannot wear my school shirt without a comfortable white top over it, or else I will have a mental breakdown and I can't cope. (This actually happen to me,)

 

[izyun]

Not being able to touch or wear certain clothing and also not taking off clothes for appropriate situations because of the feel.

Ive never heard of it, it sounds interesting

 

[Seogi]

Ive never heard of it, it sounds interesting

It is. I have so many problems.

 

[saaylhy]

my winter break is finished and tmr i have school but that just doesn't feel like it anymore
i stress sm more than usual- is it bc of my exams or anything else? idk

 

[Harleyquinfan]

Sometimes i find it hard to open up to anyone here, though there are some people, its like at least 2 or 3, sometimes i feel like im treated like the therapist friend, tho i dont mind, a lot of those "therapist friends" dont get the same treatment back that theyll give others which honestly hurts. Tho i cant force anyone to give me the same treatment, i can only wish and hope. This is basically the main reason i always bottle up my emotions and the reason i want take a break. Sometimes i also just want to leave forever bc sometimes i cant handle it. Even though others may not think so, sometimes i feel like i dont belong here, like i shouldnt even have signed up to this website

ik how this feels bc im always helping my friend nd being there for them that i got used to no one being there for me, i haven't open up to anyone since middle school nd a couple days ago when i tried to kill myself my guy best friend was the only one i ever open up too but after i did i immediately felt bad nd like shit

 

[Harleyquinfan]

TW: su!c!de, ED, r@p3

i think my ex was right. maybe i am a cold heartless person who doesn't care abt anything or anyone but "myself" i could sit here nd fool myself by saying "i do care abt ppl i always have" but even ik deep down he's right, i stopped care abt ppl hell i stopped caring abt myself a long time ago that i can't even remeber when i actully genuiely gaf abt some (ig if you count now then yea) im sorry that i ws betrayed by the person who im suppoed to feel safe around, im sorry that all that trauma she gave me affected how respond to confortation or affection, im sorry that the 2 ppl who were my only reason of living back then both at the same time killed themselves in different ways, im sorry that i tried to kill myself 3 time AND failed each time, im sorry that idk how to open up to ppl anymore, that i have terrible coping habits, that i was never good enough, or that i faked being fine or happy, or my smiles, yet when you asked how i was feeling i would say "oh im fine" when we both know i was far from it yet you did nothing to help me, im so sorry that i have trust issues or seasonal or reguar depression but my parents doesn't believe in mental health so i can't even get the help that ik i need but can't/wont get, IM SORRY that i can't even feel safe in my own home bc my brother almost raped me but i can't even tell my parents bc if they don't/or didn't believe that i was sa'd TWICE at my SCHOOL why would they believe me if i said that my step-brother almost raped me? OR that i eat like a fucking pig one day then starve myself the next or get called a whor3,nd a slt by my parents.

im soo sorry that made me in a cold hearted selfish bitchh. my bad, but maybe i like being cold heart nd not care abt ppls feelings why should i? they never cared abt mine so why should i? doesn't help my intrusive thoughts keep getting worse along w my voices nd su!c!dal thoughts but hey

 

[yvessznʚଓ]

The urge to kill myself has gotten a little better but it still definitely is there. And I'm not even going to vent to anyone anymore because why? I'm only going to say it in this space. I don't need to overshare. And I always feel so guilty after.
ED ?? These past two weeks I have had to force myself to eat, I hate it so much. I don't even get hungry anymore.
My friends and family started noticing that I don't really care about shit anymore. And it's true I don't I don't see the point in anything anymore. The worst part is that this site is like the main source of my depression. This is supposed to be about making friends with those who like kpop not all of this drama. I only feel like 3 people on this site actually like me. I hate feeling this way. I want help but will it really make me feel better?

 

[Call_MeRover]

I'm doing better than the ast time i was here. But just my friends are ignoring me lol. prob because its my fault one of my friends left