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hun, i know how that feels. but please trust me, i don't want you to die. and that's what happens hun. i know you're not dumb, but you die. nobody knows what death is like, no matter what you believe in. i don't want you to know. hell, i don't even want to know. please please be safe, atleast for today, maybe next week too. please dm me if you ever need to, or even want to. please.
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Lately i just found out that i'm failing every single class except for one. all of them. F, B, F, F, F, D, F. I'm under so much stress I don't even know what to do. I'm beginning to lose hope, I know I won't be able to raise my grades from F's to C's or B's. I've been eating less and I know it's working because as i'm typing all of this my stomach is growling and hurting. too bad E, i broke the promise.
I've tried venting to my mom multiple times about how I feel like I don't have a puropse in life anymore and how I sometimes feel like ending my life because of all of the immense stress that school is putting me under. wanna know what she said to me?
"You don't act or look suicidal at all, I don't think you're serious."
I'm so fucking angry at myself for not doing well. It's not my fault I don't understand. I think somethings wrong with me. why can't i stay still??? why can't I just listen?? why can't I remember correctly??? why can't i just fucking focus?????
I mean,, wouldn't my mom's life be so much easier without me? she wouldn't have to do anything for me because i'm gone. one less mouth to feed, right?
I can't open up to anybody about anything anymore. I don't even feel comfortable having a conversation with somebody anymore. how do I call for help if nobody believes me? they never believed me after I told them about what that asshole did to me, so why would they believe all of this? the only person that knows who did it to me is so distant now, is it because of what I told them? are they scared of me?
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I've tried venting to my mom multiple times about how I feel like I don't have a puropse in life anymore and how I sometimes feel like ending my life because of all of the immense stress that school is putting me under. wanna know what she said to me?
"You don't act or look suicidal at all, I don't think you're serious."
I'm so fucking angry at myself for not doing well. It's not my fault I don't understand. I think somethings wrong with me. why can't i stay still??? why can't I just listen?? why can't I remember correctly??? why can't i just fucking focus?????
I mean,, wouldn't my mom's life be so much easier without me? she wouldn't have to do anything for me because i'm gone. one less mouth to feed, right?
I can't open up to anybody about anything anymore. I don't even feel comfortable having a conversation with somebody anymore. how do I call for help if nobody believes me? they never believed me after I told them about what that asshole did to me, so why would they believe all of this? the only person that knows who did it to me is so distant now, is it because of what I told them? are they scared of me?
I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I can help you with school if you want.
But I need to remember my password first
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no thank you, i don't want to burder other people with my problems
Dont you dare say that. You are my friend and i want to help you
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okayyyyy you can help me
just PM what your working on when ever and i'll help!
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my anxiety is fucking eating me up. i miss him so much. i am fucking worthless. i'm nothing. fuck you, fuck me, fuck everything. i'm tired of it. i'm such a hoe. i should fucking be dead already, dude.
I just chopped half my hair off and now I'm having gender euphoria and cant stop smiling
my moms gonna wake up, yell at me and make me feel like crap so uh yeah there's that
Screw whatever your mom thinks. Im sure you look great, and as long as youre happy, thats all that matters
Ive never thought myself to have a ED. Ive always eaten well, worked out and I overall have a healthy relationship with food. But recently, at family dinners, my parents have started to do this thing were they question me about my portion sizes. Even if they are rather normal. But last week, they made the chef serve me only salad and water, while they had the usual chicken, dessert, wine and all that. When I asked my mom why, she said something along the lines of "Youre getting fat, and I cant have you ruining the family image". I tried arguing that Im healthy and I eat well, but she said "You dont even have a thigh gap anymore. Youre fat and shouldnt eat much". I left it at that. But now Im starting to feel insecure about my body. Ive always been tall, but Im on the thicker side of my family. My girlfriend always tells me that my body is perfect the way it is, but I cant help but think Im fat now. My parents always insult my weight, my hair, my style, everything. Recently my mom didnt even allow me to eat anything at dinner, because she said Im fat. Why the hell should I deal with that shit? Its taking a toll on me. Why should I put up with them practically shaming my weight?
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TW/Weight
You shouldn't have to deal with that shit. I hope that you can listen to your girlfriend's truthful words and love your body just as she loves it. But I know that that is hard with the pressure your parents are putting on you.
If you think that you are eating well, then you are. Please don't listen to the toxic words your parents are putting in your head.
You are beautiful however your body looks.
You know what? Even if you really were, she doesn't have to criticize you for that. You are good as you are. And she shouldn't forbid you to eat your fill. She should have told you to prioritize vegetables and fruits, not to say 'you're fat, the shame of the family'
Never forget that you are beautiful and kind, and your girlfriend is right, you are good the way you are
If you want to talk about it, I'm here ❤❤
Thank you <3<3<3 Im trying but its getting harder with each dinner because of all the things they sayTW/Weight
You shouldn't have to deal with that shit. I hope that you can listen to your girlfriend's truthful words and love your body just as she loves it. But I know that that is hard with the pressure your parents are putting on you.
If you think that you are eating well, then you are. Please don't listen to the toxic words your parents are putting in your head.
You are beautiful however your body looks.
Thank you <3<3<3<3 Its weird because she herself is my weight, so by her words, wouldnt she be fat aswell? Seems like logic isnt a part of herYou know what? Even if you really were, she doesn't have to criticize you for that. You are good as you are. And she shouldn't forbid you to eat your fill. She should have told you to prioritize vegetables and fruits, not to say 'you're fat, the shame of the family'
Never forget that you are beautiful and kind, and your girlfriend is right, you are good the way you are
If you want to talk about it, I'm here ❤❤
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your mom can't really do anything but yell so- also i'm v hapoy for you!!
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