its 1:15 am where i am rn and im having an exsistential crisis right now while/because im listening to sayonara hitori by taemin and crying.
idk its so dark in the hotel room right now its like the world seems dead. I wonder what would happen if life didnt exist. what would the world become. Actually, i know the answer to that one.
green.
and gold and white and red.
sayonara hitori feels like a deep reddish royal purple. One gorgeous but too overwhelming to wear normally.
its like i have no purpose. I need a purpose. Why should i waste time looking for a purpose if i dont even have one.
i hate myself right now for not putting ?s at the ends of my questions.
my keyboard clacks too loudly.
"a single goodbye, don't be sad, in this world, flowers are in full bloom"
and i wonder: "are those flowers life?" because i hope for a world where life can unfurl their petals in full scintillating glory. I do not want to live in such a bright world. For goodbyes are always easier than whatever a false utopia would be. i hope for nothing but peace for myself. one day.
it's 1:25 now and I have notifications going off. Time to return to reality. away from mystical music and poetic words that draw me in.
farewell until the next moon-hour.
So now WJSN have done the Last Sequence challenge with STAYC and STAYC had their comeback after ITZY so now I’m genuinely convinced the beef between WJSN and ITZY in my fanfic i deleted was real because
I skipped 2 swim practices alr and i didn't have a choice. And now I can't go to this one because everyone is asleep. that's why i want to be 16 and get my driver's licsenses < how do u spell licenses? it's much easier to do things by myself since I get to be in charge
I will never forgive the universe for not allowing ITZY to play Mafia Dance during MITM era.
It would’ve been perfect. I’m telling you. Mafia dance is hilarious. ITZY are amazing dancers. ITZY’s song was about the mafia game. The stars had aligned. So why? Why no Mafia dance game