rightt mine did too.. theres nothing wrong with him tho.. obviously but he's just not as emotionally stable as he used to be ig.. i don't mind helping him, I'm happy to be here for him, its just that.. idrk HOW to comfort or even help ppl like for me I'm a listener and he is also.. so its really tough for us.. especially since we've both been thru shi and are still going thru shi .. not against each other but with others ykk? i feel like were both just pillars for each other so when we need each other were there.. but also I might've been gaining some 'real' feelings for him instead of just liking him for being helpful to me and us ... i really hate the fact that I'm not a talker so when he asks me whats wrong or if I'm ok when I'm not I just cry because Idk how to talk.. (I have selective-mutism, so I can only talk when I feel comfortable or I absolutely have to.. or like when I know how to say things I need to.. other wise I don't talk at all..) and then I feel guilty bc I know he wants to help me but idk how to let him when I cant even help myself.. were just constantly painting a white canvas with white paint over and over again... on the other hand he's a talker, he's really outgoing and friendly so talking comes easily for him.. except. when it comes to his feelings.. he just covers everything up and I hate it so much.. i understand but I don't like it because I really want to help him and I know he knows I do too, he just doesn't want to be a burden.. and he's not... i wish I could just rewrite all the ways he perceives himself so he can truly see how much he does for others ... oof sorry for venting ig- ...
