Mmmmmm.. The sound of myself humming to soothe my hard feelings.. Are quiet.. somehow. I feel calm and happy. I usually feel alone.. sad.. Unhappy.. But sometimes my feelings don't matter. As if the person would care. I feel okay in my skin.. okay to be different.. okay to know my ugliness that falls on my face as it grows. The silence is quiet but.. my cries for help are quieter. As I cope with it. I talk to other people who feel the same as me. afraid of what will happen when Im older. Ill probably not end the way I want to. An idol. like Iroha.. Not like Beomgyu or Soul or Yunjin... Like Iroha. Shes been my main inspiration since debut.. God how much longer will it take.. take to
be pretty.. I said my expectations for myself are to look better than Oli London.. When I have standards to be looking as good as Wonyoung.. Iroha.. I said that to make them feel better about their looks. Zuri... specifically. As the Maknae of Kv I shouldn't be feeling like this. I should be this big bright ray of sunshine beaming in the warmth of my bestfriends.
- Ashlinn Cha
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