anyways here is my recent relationship and breakup went
TW/CWS: mentions of s/h, mentions of dr*gs, ab**e and s**ual content, very lil caps/capitals
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anyways here's how my last breakup/relationship went with my ex gf, and yes. yes, i am name dropping, idgaf. wtv anyways her name was iris/violet, either one but i used iris more. besides the point. she's a *****. the beginning of dating and relationship was kinda mid tbh. she did dr*gs and shit and was an addict and almost like, offed herself a few weeks before we dated, so yeah. me being a absolute genius (sarcasm) and being a nice bf/partner (not sarcasm), i helped her out with that shit and got her to not like do dr*gs anymore anf stuff. no more dr*g addict gf. yeah i know im amazing. anyways once that was out of the way, she love bombed tf outta me so like i really feel for her fast and quickly became physically and actually got obsessed with her. to the point where like i would do anything for her. (fr actually, not exaggerating) atp she kept degrading and saying mean shit to me, kept going for our 5 months of dating then broke up. nice and clean break up, straight to point typa thing. but we agreed to be fwbs but then a week after we broke up, she fcked her ex gf who almost made her off herself. so then i got pissed and shit then stopped talking to her, then a week after that.. she crawls back to me and we're back to being fwbs with some romantic shit but no commitment typa thing while she was still fcking her ex gf as well (which i knew about, didn't love the idea but i tolerated it) so yeah. (ik ik "omg kaizer why would u steep that low??" "she's bad for u!!" "she's toxic!!" ikik but i was still deeply in love, infatuated, obsessed with her, and she knew, so i would crawl back to her no matter what.) anyways then a lil time skip, a month after we got into a big argument anf fight and it led her to saying mean and very hurtful, heartbreaking shit to me. like "i never loved", "i love (ex gf's name), not you!", "you're a fcking child." typa stuff and etc. anyways led to me having more hyperventilations, anxiety attacks. oh then i relapsed and yk s/h. after being 4 years clean. i relapsed cause of her. then got into dr*gs, smoking and getting shit ton of trouble. THEN AGAIN, i fkcing run back to her, over and over. atp it's just my layer of self-destruction. and i can't stop. cause i love her sm. it's a horrendous situation i'm in rn. and currently i am dating someone rn. she's a lovely gf. but i don't deserve her at all. i'm not ready for her to know that i'm still stuck on this one b*tch who has ruined me and myself being and my mental health. i hate her but love her sm.
) and then a few months later one of his ex’s brother, or maybe bf, contacted me and told me that he was a serial cheater 
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