I’m really starting to feel like a failure right now. I know I can’t change my first two psychology papers because I’ve already sat them but I can’t help but feel like I did shit. I was suppose to get an A for psychology but now I feel like I won’t even get a B. I can hardly answer paper 3 too. I didn’t know what one of the questions even meant on my practice paper and had to check. I can’t name any researchers to support my claims. I feel like I have no time to improve because my exam is in 3 days now basically and I have to balance English on top of it too. Im so scared because I’m so desperate to get into the university I’ve applied to. What if I let it all go last minute and I don’t get the grades I need and I can’t go. I don’t know what I’ll do. I’ve only just been getting As recently feeling confident but now I don’t feel confident at all. I haven’t even started my french exams yet what if I fuck them up completely. I just want it to be over. The whole thing. I don’t want to have to wait the entirety of July and majority of August too. I know it sounds dramatic but my future depends on these grades. Depending on where I end up depends on where I might live, who I will meet, what I might learn. I just want it to all work out but now my head is filled of what if it doesn’t. I know it’s stupid I know I can’t do anything about it now but I hate it so much
I'm not sure what to do anymore in this relationship.
He is never the one to text me first. Never. So I am always the one to start the conversation. Fine, whatever.
But it gets to a point where I sound clingy if I am always the one to text him first. And it looks like I'm being clingy, but I'm only trying to keep the relationship active. He told me once that he broke up with his last girlfriend because they ¨lost touch¨.
I don't want that to happen to us. I think I love him, I really do, he's such a sweet and funny person. And I don't want to lose him over a dumb reason.
I've been losing sleep over this and it's driving me insane.
god finals are stressing
im doing my math final but I always fooking fall asleep even though I want to be awake
school is making me fall apart
my friends are moving away & imma be all alone
next school year, I'll be alone and my friends will leave me
he, imma be alone in school again
it's not like being alone in school is a new thing to me; I'm used to it already
i should have never said anything. this is why i don't like feelings. rori, u. are. a dumbass.
fuck love. just fuck it all...
she's so perfect. golden. i live to talk to her. fuck me. fuck it. i am a fool
i should have never said anything. this is why i don't like feelings. rori, u. are. a dumbass.
fuck love. just fuck it all...
she's so perfect. golden. i live to talk to her. fuck me. fuck it. i am a fool
She's really cool but that's the problem..
Everyone follows her because of how cool she is and I'm left there once again.
Even after I had a panic attack, only 2 people cared for me. One even bought me ice cream with his money which I really appreciate. I just wish that I was more visible to my "friends" which I can't even find out are really friends with me or just need money and a young parent to let them be free..