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Dont open up Lei..
I do Like you still, And you're still enjoyable <3do u still like me?
am i still enjoyable?
thank u greggy <3I do Like you still, And you're still enjoyable <3
I know you said you're not looking for advice, but you know I gotta give it.I hope no one takes this the wrong way, which is why I've already put a tw but I'm going to explain the tw a little more to make sure no one who could be harmed by this reads ahead. I'm going to be discussing eating too much and gaining weight in a negative context. I am well aware of the body positivity/neutrality movements and I do not believe anyone should be insulted or mistreated based on their weight. However, due to my life experiences, the idea of gaining weight is frightening for me.
I don't want to talk too much on the backstory as it isn't my story to tell, but what's important to know is most women in my family are classified as overweight or obese, and eating addiction/overreating is a common trend. Because of this, I've been raised heavily with the mindset of eating responsibily. My mum has raised me with the mindset of only eat what you can stomach, and there is no point eating more than you need. Only eat when you're hungry etc etc. I think these are very important mindsets when it comes to eating and I'm greatful for these.
I've also never been much of a foodie. I was still eating off the children's menu at my favourite restaurants into my teen years, there was a period of my life I was only eating 2 meals a day as opposed to 3. I've never been a snack person, basically sticking to 3 meals a day. I've also been an extremely fussy eater for most of my life, though within the last year I've been trying to increase my meal options. So what's the problem?
Well the issue is despite the fact right now I'm a healthy weight, I do not live a healthy lifestyle. I do not walk or exercise much, and most of the meals I eat in a week are not healthy. My favourite food is also chocolate. Despite not being much of a foodie, these factors scare me about whether I'll end up like the rest of my family. I've seen the negative impacts of their weight on their life and I don't want to suffer the same way they do. The reason this is scaring me a lot right now is because I've noticed I've been eating more snacks than usual recently. I can't tell whether it's stress eating due to my exams, or whether this is the result of me being older and knowing my mum has less input on what I can and can't eat. This September I'm leaving home and will be entirely responsible for what I eat, so I'm scared when she can't monitor me at all anymore, I'll get into bad eating habits.
I'm not really looking for advice... just wanted to rant about my fears
If you ever want to talk about it, i'm here to listen.I wish I was dead. I’ll never find happiness and I’ll never be loved or wanted or needed by anyone. I can’t find my blades but I do have a pocket knife, I wonder if it will do the same. I guess there’s only one way to find out
Thank youIf you ever want to talk about it, i'm here to listen.
No problem!Thank you
My head hurts.I tried banging it against the wall but it's not working.
So truesome people have such an inhumane way of thinking.
like, i hope they get the help they need, cause that shit is so fucked upSo true
Same. Like go on Twitter if you wanna be a troll lollike, i hope they get the help they need, cause that shit is so fucked up![]()