❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[1fool4you]

they used to make me so happy.. what happened??

 

[BButterflies]

They did not act like that with me. I guess i am not likable. No one notices me.
I should not let this bother me as much as it does. it should not matter just like i do not matter to them. the thing is i have never cried over an ex, or just any relationship that ended. This one hit very hard and they both act like it never existed. I loved them, but it was not enough. I will learn to get over it i guess.

 

[BButterflies]

I'm learning to only talk to people who actually care. I don't want to talk to someone who is ignoring me on purpose. If they don't make an effort I do not have to. I should learn how to disattach from people and situations.

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

i hate life....I wish i was like THEM...

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

I hate my friends

 

[1fool4you]

tw *******?
i rlly want to overdose again. my life is so garbage rn. all my mom does is yell at me and make fun of me, schools been pushing sm shit on me, my dad is like never there for me, and my friends act like i dont exist. i rlly can only vent to 2 people, and i dont even do that because they're gonna think im fucked up or smthn. ig the only place i feel comfortable venting is here. cause no one rlly reads them.
istg one day if i just leave and dont come back w/o any reason why just know i prolly killed myself.

another seperate vent.
recently ive been starving myself. ive only been drinking water and i havent ate for the past 2 days. my stomach hurts so bad and i feel like im gonna vomit, but i love it. i love this feeling. other girls dont have stretch marks. other girls dont have cellulite on their legs. other girls have thin arms and flat stomachs and slim faces. and if i have to starve myself to the point until i pass out, so be it. ill do anything to be skinny.

 

[pomegranctezen]

i feel ike my friends r letting go of me
ive been pressured by parents to make good grades butt its only making my frades worse
idk what to do

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

T/W Cutting Myself and Abuse
so basically I feel as if I am a disappointment. My grandmother asks why I don’t tell her anything or tell what’s going on because I don’t want to get in trouble, or make her start yelling at me about how I’m doing it for attention or whatever.
The only reason I cut myself was because I was feeling really depressed in that moment, and I felt I deserved pain. I always lock the doors and put a chair behind it so I don’t get caught. Somewhat I wanna live with my Aunt. The only reason is because she doesn’t call K-pop idols or k drama actors or any Asian thing I watch or listen to ying yangs or those Chinese people. She listened to my K-pop playlist a little bit and said that some of the songs weren’t that bad. She is also a very nice lady, and if she asked me to move in with her, I personally would. Like she said she was going to move to Korea with me! WITH MEEE!!! MY OWN GRANDMOTHER WONT EVEN LET ME SET FOOT IN KOREA!!!!! im begging that I can go to college in Korea. I don’t really like America. We’re I live, some one is always dying or getting shot, or someone’s kid is going missing. And almost everything at my school is political. Like I don’t really like trump. If i say I like Biden more, people will start hating on me and stop being friends with me. Like we aren’t even allowed to vote sir I don’t like venting to anyone because I don’t like being burdens on ANYONE!!!! So I just don’t say anything and just be happy. I’m the therapist. I take in the problems. What about mine? You have a dad and mom, don’t say mean things about them. I know it’s hard, and I know that you can’t do everything you want too, but treasure them. Because if you wait till the end you will be stuck. And depressed. Don’t do what I did. Please don’t. Tell them you love them. If they treat you like shit, leave there ass. Abusive, manipulaive, or just don’t give a fuck? Don’t worry about them. There the only thing holding you back from doing what you wanna do. Don’t listen to them, because they don’t make the choice to do what you want to do. If you wanna be a K-pop idol, do it. There is nothing stopping you but you. If the others can do it, you can too. If you work hard enough, then you will get there. And you will not have to worry about what they say. Because you already made it to the place people doubted you would be. You have made it to were YOU wanted to be. You have made your dreams the reality no one in your world thought that you would be able to accomplish. You have done the impossible.

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

i hate my life...i hate my parents...i hate everything...

 

[ur.local.dino]

you know the audio that goes, “feels like, we had matching wounds but, mines still black and bruised and yours is perfectly fine.”
i relate to it a lot. as the older sibling (i have an older step brother, he isnt around very often.), i feel the need to protect my little brother. on a daily basis, he is threatened and yelled at by my dad. the same goes for me, but not as often. i thought at this point he wouldve realized that it isn’t right, that it’s not the proper treatment to give kids. i get yelled at for not paying attention, not eating fast enough, taking too long in the shower, the list goes on.

that’s the matching wounds part.

now, for the part, “mines still black and bruised but yours is perfectly fine.”.

my little brother still smiles, giggles, and all the happy stuff around my dad, the real kind. i’ve had to learn to fake it so i don’t get yelled at more. i get that he’s only 7 and may not understand these things, but it hurts. i’ve spent my nights crying myself to sleep. i used to be the one holding my family together. my mom was gone, my older brother payed no attention to the family, and my little brother was too young to understand. i had severe depression, anxiety, i had it all. but who was the mood maker of the family? who put the smiles on their faces, the one who was always so happy and cheerful? me. i had to do it. during the day, my job was to hold the family together. during the night, i cried. i cried for hours on end, hoping that some miracle would happen and i would be gone. they say i’m making it up and i’m being dramatic. they’re all just blind and oblivious to whats actually going on. he’s threatened to hit me. he’s said that i’m not perfect enough. and when my mom had to leave, he blamed everything on her. he said that she was being the bad parent. yes, she made some bad decisions, but she was ill. the responsible thing for him to do wouldve been to help her, so that it wouldn’t have gotten so bad in the first place. i don’t think he knew how much time i spent in the counselors office at school, crying. keep in mind, during this i was in 5th grade. a 10 year old, having to go through that. my little brother seems to remember absolutely nothing. that’s great for him, maybe he’ll realize this isn’t the right situation when he’s older.

 

[ur.local.dino]

you know the audio that goes, “feels like, we had matching wounds but, mines still black and bruised and yours is perfectly fine.”
i relate to it a lot. as the older sibling (i have an older step brother, he isnt around very often.), i feel the need to protect my little brother. on a daily basis, he is threatened and yelled at by my dad. the same goes for me, but not as often. i thought at this point he wouldve realized that it isn’t right, that it’s not the proper treatment to give kids. i get yelled at for not paying attention, not eating fast enough, taking too long in the shower, the list goes on.

that’s the matching wounds part.

now, for the part, “mines still black and bruised but yours is perfectly fine.”.

my little brother still smiles, giggles, and all the happy stuff around my dad, the real kind. i’ve had to learn to fake it so i don’t get yelled at more. i get that he’s only 7 and may not understand these things, but it hurts. i’ve spent my nights crying myself to sleep. i used to be the one holding my family together. my mom was gone, my older brother payed no attention to the family, and my little brother was too young to understand. i had severe depression, anxiety, i had it all. but who was the mood maker of the family? who put the smiles on their faces, the one who was always so happy and cheerful? me. i had to do it. during the day, my job was to hold the family together. during the night, i cried. i cried for hours on end, hoping that some miracle would happen and i would be gone. they say i’m making it up and i’m being dramatic. they’re all just blind and oblivious to whats actually going on. he’s threatened to hit me. he’s said that i’m not perfect enough. and when my mom had to leave, he blamed everything on her. he said that she was being the bad parent. yes, she made some bad decisions, but she was ill. the responsible thing for him to do wouldve been to help her, so that it wouldn’t have gotten so bad in the first place. i don’t think he knew how much time i spent in the counselors office at school, crying. keep in mind, during this i was in 5th grade. a 10 year old, having to go through that. my little brother seems to remember absolutely nothing. that’s great for him, maybe he’ll realize this isn’t the right situation when he’s older.

another thing to add, haha. my older brother would laugh at my depression. he called me a faker, saying that this is why everyone hates me. its true, ive never met someone who doesnt hate me. just have to deal with it, hopefully get somewhere in life.

 

[soobinzz]

TW / cutting / ******* / choking?
i love my mom but the thing is I'm starting not to it pains me to say this but at a young age i wanted to kms because of my mom everyday i get yelled at for no reason if she mad when she gets back home from work I'm the person she yells at i starting back to cutting myself bc of that i hate it i even made a plan to tell my teacher so i couldn't go home anymore everytime i get in trouble my mom says how she doesn't like me she chokes me bc shes so mad with me the first time i got choked it was for something i did on accident and now its a reaccuring thing that happens when I'm in trouble i hate it when my dad doesn't even do anything to help its like he's being controlled by my mom to not do anything the only people that actually love me is my little brother maybe my older brother and my dog my parents only care if i eat and if my grades are good and most of the time I'm overworked at school and at home and its all hell

 

[Raymond]

All of my friends probably think i’m annoying-i’m trying to be a better person. I feel bad to be my true self

 

[BButterflies]

I wonder why he did that. I do not even know what I did. I feel like our friendship is an on-and-off thing at this point. I should not let someone affect my day so hard, but they do.

 

[izyun]

Its so obvious i annoy people yet nobody tells me like thats so fucking stupid like if you dont like me, just tell me like tf

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

Help me understand why. I’m only a teenager. You’re my god damn dad, be there for me. If you weren’t ready to have kids, you shouldn’t have stopped banging my mom, and moved on to the next ***** you had in line, instead of cheating on her MULTIPLE of times. You even had kids with those whores. Like sir, I have 5 siblings. My mom stayed with you because she loved you no matter what happened. Even the times she said she she will leave you, she never left. She let you live with us. You didn’t even have a job. You didn’t help pay rent. My mom worked he ass off to help us. And you sat there jobless, sitting there watching her. My mom died. And now I have no parents at all. My mom died from Covid, yes, but I think it was depression. Why you ask? Because of you. Me. The child in her stomach. My sister is alive and well, but my mom couldn’t even see her own child. My sister couldn’t even see her mother. Do you know how depressing that is? YOUR the reason our family is depressed. My grandmother, me, my uncle, my uncles husband, my aunties, my grandfather, my great grandfather, my great grandmother, my mom’s friends, and my own god damn dog is depressed because of you. Thanks a lot. We really appreciate the work and sacrifice you put into that to make us like this. We truly are grateful.

 

[knnovation]

Goodbye

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

Goodbye

…What.

 

[Rengya_Utoma]

Goodbye

nooooo!

 

[izyun]

Goodbye

Tani no