Np, im trying but its really hard. You can also try to talking with your parents about it but i can assure you that just eating a regular meal wont cause you to gain so much weight like you think you will, you can take small steps to going back to eating like you normally did but dont push yourself either
yea i have tried eating little snacks but its not helping at all. everytime i eat i just get very teary like im about to cry. i just try to put the food in my mouth and not think abt anything but i just end up cryinggg
You really do need to talk to someone irl like your parents so they can help you bc you are most likely getting an ed, the most help you get is therapy, obviously that would be up to you but you should tell someone bc if its hard to eat small snacks, it can soon go to eating nothing and your body will react in a way where you might not want it to, so please, before it gets worse, tell someone
it just feels like i cant tell someone. ive gone to therapy before and it seemed to not help at all.
Im sure if you find the courage to do so, youll receive lots of help but i you cant seem to tell someone irl, you can always talk to someone on here
yeah thank you for the advice <3
Ofc!!<3
imma be a bald in a couple years fr fr) anyways that’s it. Wasn’t really a rant and no, I don’t plan on getting better, not like anyone on here cares what happens to me. I just needed to get this off my chest because my ED bestie is offline rn so I don’t want to bother her atm.
hey hey in my eyes you are perfect..do not starve yourself, you are perfect the way you are..tbh, I've been feeling the same way but if you need someone to talk, to vent/rant to then i am here...i won't always pm you back but i will see it eventually...Okay? i understand the way you feel...i love you the way you are, if i am being honestfor a few months, ive been mostly starving myself, now just the thought of gaining weight honestly scares me-my parents basically gave me the idea that if i was too “fat” they would literally disown me-my parents neglect me alot and that just doesnt make me feel good about myself, so i just cut my arms so i can focus on something else. This is the first time ive ever said anything because atp its have gone too far. my feelings feel like trash to everyone. and plus the way i act is sort of like a coping mechanism in a way???? idk how to explain it. anyways ive stopped cutting for now but im still starving myself. i thought this feeling of hopelessness would go away in months? everytime i ask for help no one seems to help, so now i dont even try to ask for advice. besides i dont have any time for myself to vent because im too busy listening to people’s problems. sometimes i wished someone would just be there “hey are you feeling good?” but i dont want EVERYONE To ask that. literally if my friends find this im going to kms
That sounds really serious and it is. I can't imagine what it's like but you're an amazing person for being able to make it through still and I'd say you deserve an award for being the best! I very much care what happens to you and this happening to you is very concerning. Tbh, the fact your mom won't listen makes me so mad. There's a lot to look forward to in life but it's probably not looking super bright right now. I'm not amazing with words but I don't want you to leave but my opinion won't change much. Just know that you do have people that are here and love you.TW: Eating disorder talk:
Okay so my ED decided to come back real hard back in August, and since then, I’ve lost a shit ton of weight but anyway I guess I clogged the drain cause my hair has been falling out a lot, so I got yelled at, like okay? But then my mom has to make some of the silliest comments ever, about how I possibly can’t be anorexic because I’m a fat b!tch etc etc and even though I tried to explain to her that not everyone with anorexia is underweight or anything but of course, what do I know lol I mean this is the same woman who told me I don’t have any mental illnesses and I just want attention etc. I mean I really don’t care at this point because I plan on killing myself anyway, but honestly if my ED will do it for me, that’d be a lot better for me because less mess. Also super pissed about not being able to purge anymore, I used to be able to purge so easily during my last relapse and now, the thought of self inducing vomit makes me sick to my stomach but at the same time I kind of want to get sick so I can be vomiting so that I don’t have to self induce. It’s really a struggle. (Also just pulled out a chunk of hair by running my hand through it lmfao
AHem. None of those things are true. you are pretty. very in my opinion and you are good enough for me and dra. we love you very much. and why should you give two FUCKS about what those ppl say abt u bc they don't run your life. So why should you listen to what they say? they don't know you. and you are definitely not FAT from the pictures i've seen. your perfect/pretty/cute/hot the way you are. and I don't give two damns what those ppl think bc you. are. perfect. the. way. you. are lovee~ sorry if i'm being a bit aggressive- i'm more of the passive aggressively love type-- but ilysmmm and u don't deserve to be called those things. ily ily ily. and I will send you multiple paragraphs of my love 4 u (and if u ever need someone to talk to i'm here and i'll try my best to comfort u <333)
nothing new, nothing special
*coughs aggressivelyy* AHEMMM whoever is excluding you is rude and don't deserve to be your friend/lover/eTc and if you ever need a new friend or possible best friend I am always here. someone as kind as you doesn't deserve to be treated that way. and nobody And I Mean NOBODY should treat another human being like that unless they wanna be treated like that. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to and I will try my best to comfort you. i'm sorry that ur being treated that way and i'm here for u </3feeling left out and excluded once again
its ok though. its what i get for self-isolating too much.
fuck, ik its just another episode of depression and ill be fine tmr, but dang. it hurts so bad
aww, thanks baby...but it's true
NOO ITS NOTTTTT
awww, sorry baefeeling left out and excluded once again
its ok though. its what i get for self-isolating too much.
fuck, ik its just another episode of depression and ill be fine tmr, but dang. it hurts so bad
fine.
