❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

what's sad about me is that I basically have 0 friends irl.
that fucking asshole was my bestfriend- later dated me long distance but his commitment was shit so we broke it off and he used me emotionally
our other shared friends literally are all js distant

no one apart from my family would miss me
sucks how I have online friends and literally 0 in person friends
I cherish my online friends, literally the only reason I'm still on earth

that and I've done too much to just drop it

 

[hoonies]

i am so tired of everyone.
i feel so ugly and fucking stupid all the time
Im always stressing out and I can't stop crying istg
I can't do this anymore
but who cares about nico's feelings?
nobody. nobody fucking cares <3
maybe I should just go and

Spoiler: tw

jump off my apartment building. idk why I didn't jump in the first place

somebody shoot me

dont say that , theres people that care about u whether you believe it or not. don't hurt yourself

 

[ramyeonz]

dont say that , theres people that care about u whether you believe it or not. don't hurt yourself

thank you tianna, i really needed that <3

 

[ᵐᵒʳⁱᵃʰ]

im so sad

 

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

today I felt real fear
a feeling I hoped to never have felt again
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so today after school, my school held a know your rights workshop
as it finishes, my dad tells us to be on watch when we walk back to the car cause you never know which car can be ICE or maybe some racist person could have spilled on it
and we walk back to the car but my legs are shaking and im paranoid cause im unstable
and right as my dad is gonna start the car and head onto the freeway, my older sister calls us
tells us that almost near a freeway exit we use, that they're making EVERY car get out of the freeway and onto a checkpoint
a checkpoint
a checkpoint which now 95% sure includes I.C.E
and my dad immediately reroutes
I was so terrified and felt fear- pure, raw fear
I was shaking
my mom was nervous
my siblings were also in the car (younger sis and younger brother)
i was checking around the streets to make sure no checkpoints or anything
and my dad took a full street way home
and shit got real when he said that he's scared, nervous & terrified
my DAD
he doesn't rlly talk ab his emotions but to hear that- got me scared
we went to the supermarket and a cashier told us that it's been empty
they've been roaming
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its getting closer and all I pray is that my family stays together

 

[luvsbn_]

I miss my Mimi if only she was still here maybe I would feel better

 

[S𝝤𝝦𝝜𝝞✫]

I fucking give up

 

[Seogi]

burning by far is the most dangerous

 

[Arya Maaha-Lakshmi]

Spoiler

i want to go back to s/h but then i promised my mum that i won't.

i can't deal with this shit anymore.
my mum's filed a dv case against my dad, i don't know if i should feel guilty about it or happy abt it. like yeah he's my dad but he's done shit he shouldn't have done. and now them both are going competitive to win this case in court.
all my dad's ever done is treat me like a dog or his slave. and if i didn't do as he said then i'd be yelled at and most likely beaten up. he's lied to me so many fucking times i don't know whats the truth and whats the lie anymore. all this man does is call me to threaten me or to discuss things he should be discussing with my mother, like the mortgage or the legal stuff for their separation process. i'm a child so let me stay as one while i can. we're all going through so much stress, and i've had enough of hiding my emotions. i don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore. and i don't want to put on a fake smile in front of anyone, i just want to be myself, is that to much to ask for. comparing everyone elses problems to mine, mine are quite small but i can't deal with this anymore, i've been dealing with this shit even before my parents separated, my father is narcissistic person sometimes (all the damn time) and then my mother is crying in front of me all the time as well as my sister, and i have no privacy. give some privacy. i just need time to calm down, scream yell cry i dunno but i need some privacy which none of them are willing to give. i don't want to be a burden to anyone but now i feel like one for ranting right now. i'm sorry if this annoys the hell out of anyone

 

[RickyWhenICatchYou]

Spoiler

if i died i bet ppl wouldn't even realise, most people will probably forget within hours

NO NO NO NO
girl is you okay?
Do ya need to talk??

 

[Arya Maaha-Lakshmi]

NO NO NO NO
girl is you okay?
Do ya need to talk??

it's ok, it's better i don't talk, ty for offering to listen though

 

[RickyWhenICatchYou]

it's ok, it's better i don't talk, ty for offering to listen though

Ok whatever you say

 

[ramyeonz]

this is what my mom decided to say to me today

"Why do you keep throwing up your food? Just be happy with your weight. It's not that hard to be happy with the way you look. It’s frustrating to see you do this to yourself. Can't you just figure it out? There are so many other kids out there who manage to get it right, so why can’t you? Sometimes I wonder why it feels like I have such a bad son. I wish you would just listen and do better, instead of making everything so difficult. Why is it so hard for you? Why can’t you just make things easier for both of us?


like are you fucking serious? you're so bipolar. One day you're telling me to be happy with my weight,the next you're telling me im a fucking fat pig. Make a fucking choice.




i seriously cant do this shit anymore. im so fucking done

 

[Arya Maaha-Lakshmi]

this is what my mom decided to say to me today

"Why do you keep throwing up your food? Just be happy with your weight. It's not that hard to be happy with the way you look. It’s frustrating to see you do this to yourself. Can't you just figure it out? There are so many other kids out there who manage to get it right, so why can’t you? Sometimes I wonder why it feels like I have such a bad son. I wish you would just listen and do better, instead of making everything so difficult. Why is it so hard for you? Why can’t you just make things easier for both of us?


like are you fucking serious? you're so bipolar. One day you're telling me to be happy with my weight,the next you're telling me im a fucking fat pig. Make a fucking choice.




i seriously cant do this shit anymore. im so fucking done

ur not a fat pig

 

[luvsbn_]

I hate when I tell my mom that I feel fat and sad she just says “ugh your always sad about something and your not fat and it’s getting annoying that you keep mentioning it can u can u shut up abt that “ like thanks mom

 

[luvsbn_]

Spoiler: Hitting

My mom ask why I hate my dad she acts like she doesn’t see what happens

if I make one mistake my dad will hit me with a w!re so hard that I’m crying and everything( that he hit) is red and I’m on my knees and he steps on my foot (in like an angel that my foot is going into the floor) with ALL his weight and it’s so painful I’m ugly crying basically begging him to stop that it hurts he says idc and I tell him sorry and I won’t do it again and he says he doesn’t care I always say that and I’m telling him again that it hurts and it gets so bad that I’m trying to crawl away but obviously he’s bigger than me so it doesn’t work and my mom finally says something and he stops and hits me one last time and says to “get the fuck out of here *threatens me* and I run to my room and lock my door sit down on the floor and cry for hours

 

[Arya Maaha-Lakshmi]

Spoiler: Hitting

My mom ask why I hate my dad she acts like she doesn’t see what happens

if I make one mistake my dad will hit me with a w!re so hard that I’m crying and everything( that he hit) is red and I’m on my knees and he steps on my foot (in like an angel that my foot is going into the floor) with ALL his weight and it’s so painful I’m ugly crying basically begging him to stop that it hurts he says idc and I tell him sorry and I won’t do it again and he says he doesn’t care I always say that and I’m telling him again that it hurts and it gets so bad that I’m trying to crawl away but obviously he’s bigger than me so it doesn’t work and my mom finally says something and he stops and hits me one last time and says to “get the fuck out of here *threatens me* and I run to my room and lock my door sit down on the floor and cry for hours

girl do u wanna talk??

 

[yvie]

Spoiler: Hitting

My mom ask why I hate my dad she acts like she doesn’t see what happens

if I make one mistake my dad will hit me with a w!re so hard that I’m crying and everything( that he hit) is red and I’m on my knees and he steps on my foot (in like an angel that my foot is going into the floor) with ALL his weight and it’s so painful I’m ugly crying basically begging him to stop that it hurts he says idc and I tell him sorry and I won’t do it again and he says he doesn’t care I always say that and I’m telling him again that it hurts and it gets so bad that I’m trying to crawl away but obviously he’s bigger than me so it doesn’t work and my mom finally says something and he stops and hits me one last time and says to “get the fuck out of here *threatens me* and I run to my room and lock my door sit down on the floor and cry for hours

i'm so sorry you don't deserve this, i've seen a couple mothers who'd rather defend their partner than their kid, it's insane. i know this is a very difficult situation to get out of but i just hope you know that none of it is your fault and it will get better if you push through, at least when you're able to move out. nothing lasts forever, neither will this

 

[luvsbn_]

girl do u wanna talk??

Sometime I feel I do but then I get embarrassed to tell ppl what goes on yk so then I just say end up not telling them

 

[luvsbn_]

i'm so sorry you don't deserve this, i've seen a couple mothers who'd rather defend their partner than their kid, it's insane. i know this is a very difficult situation to get out of but i just hope you know that none of it is your fault and it will get better if you push through, at least when you're able to move out. nothing lasts forever, neither will this

It’s okay I know
Ive only got like 2- 3 years left till I can move out
thank you