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I wanna go back to april of 2023
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why did i read that. bc it did happen. now im crying.
Thank you <3
so over this shit bro
I'm going to do horrendous things to myself. I can't believe I let myself so loose like that. I just let one of my biggest fears come true. Fuck you, fuck you. fuck you and him. You basically used me and started acting all lovey dovey with him like you did with me. You open me up to love when I thought I was aroace and would be another statistic of the autistic people who don't fall in love. Fuck you. I won't forgive you. Fuck him, I wanna kill him with my own hands. You took her away from me when I felt love and opened up. FUCK YOU.
Lmaooo, maybe this is gods way of saying the homosexuals are fucked and you'll always end up marrying a man, lol. I already accept my faith on that. Fuck me. Fuck you. I let myself get away. And when I thought it was enough to be friends with benefits? I fucking crocheted you a love letter with my fucking time and effort, I bought you a necklace you wanted and I planned to confess my fucking love to you. Then he comes along? And you act like this??? Saying "oh! I don't wanna hang out that much because of studying." Fucking lies, you ever do. You said it yourself. You just wanna be with him? Oh! Maybe you're the type to get really attached and leave to somebody else. Fuck you, you people are fucking horrible. I know what you've been through, but that doesnt been you be a fucking biitch back. Fuck you, I felt so connected to you. And it fucking broke my heart when you said "oh! I imagine this fictional character whenever we kiss/make out" that fucking hurted whenever it was a joke, clearly you werent ready for a relationship, nor was I.
Fuck you.
Lmaooo, maybe this is gods way of saying the homosexuals are fucked and you'll always end up marrying a man, lol. I already accept my faith on that. Fuck me. Fuck you. I let myself get away. And when I thought it was enough to be friends with benefits? I fucking crocheted you a love letter with my fucking time and effort, I bought you a necklace you wanted and I planned to confess my fucking love to you. Then he comes along? And you act like this??? Saying "oh! I don't wanna hang out that much because of studying." Fucking lies, you ever do. You said it yourself. You just wanna be with him? Oh! Maybe you're the type to get really attached and leave to somebody else. Fuck you, you people are fucking horrible. I know what you've been through, but that doesnt been you be a fucking biitch back. Fuck you, I felt so connected to you. And it fucking broke my heart when you said "oh! I imagine this fictional character whenever we kiss/make out" that fucking hurted whenever it was a joke, clearly you werent ready for a relationship, nor was I.
Fuck you.
I'm so sorry that happened to you ml. they obv aren't enough a good person enough person for you. don't blame yourself. you tried but he didn't care. thats something he needs to go down for. he's evil. your a beautiful person i imagine and ik your heart is even prettier. don't let some pineapple headed ass ***** try to break ur pretty heart. your worth SO much more than that.
i genuinely don't know what i can say to comfort you, but i can tell u smth for sure, u deserve way more than what that person gave u. B*tches like her don't deserve ppl like u. if u need to talk i'll be there listening like u listened to me when i needed it.
Not even that, she added him to a gc and started acting all lovey dovey, whenever I said sweet things, she'd go "ew, thats so corny" but him? She'd say "aww thats so cute *heart emojis* FUCK YOU. She knows exactly what the fuck shes doing. Fuck her. And her friends saying to me if I'm okay but yet adds how cute they are. FUCK YOU TOO. She literally opened me up, I clicked with her and so did she, we had such a green flag, cute relationship and everything went fucking downhill. Shes getting her own fucking kdrama. Its a girl btw.. I had so much PTSD with men and I knew I'd always love females and look what fucking happened now. FUCK ME. I get called pretty alot, maybe its my looks or I'm too sweet and shy that I dont put boundaries in place. I always tell myself that I'm just too good for a relationship but the other just says whatever I said above.
Thanks, I just needed to rant. And I dont usually do this but that was fucking horrendous.
Haha! No no, its all good!! What I said was alot, I just really needed to let it out some where because irl isnt the best idea. Shes been through alot as well, we are basically the trauma holders trope but it didnt go as the fanfics planned. haha. I'm just in a really bad state.
Thank you. <3
I can’t do this anymore
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genuinely the best feeling to finally let go of something that you thought you couldn’t live without. look at me, i’m genuinely doing so well, im happy with myself and im surrounded by others who genuinely love and care for me ^^ if somebody won’t care for you, then somebody else will! i’ve never felt this happy in a while, im so proud of myself im gonna cry 
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i still have a long way to go, but im confidentgenuinely the best feeling to finally let go of something that you thought you couldn’t live without. look at me, i’m genuinely doing so well, im happy with myself and im surrounded by others who genuinely love and care for me ^^ if somebody won’t care for you, then somebody else will! i’ve never felt this happy in a while, im so proud of myself im gonna cry
i fucking hate this shit sm 
i wanna cry
i wanna cry
Are you oki fucking hate this shit sm
i wanna cry
You wanna talk about it?nope
Oki i'll pm you
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sometimes i wonder why people on here genuinely dont like me. like i understand im not as open to new people as i used to be and i do like stay in my circle but i feel like that doesnt give others the right to instantly not like me. no one has out right said they dont like me but its a general vibe i get from people and these people are usually all connected with one another and it frustrates me bc it just gets past down from one person to the other. i genuinely feel as tho ive done nothing to anyone to the point where people hated me or choose to not even interact with me and when they do its a vibe that is off to me. like i understand maybe there have been times where i let my emotions get the best of me to the point where im not thinking bc of how upset i am but for those who choose to not see my perspective and immediately assume im not a good person is where i feel its not right bc ik im not perfect but im not going to use that excuse to try and excuse all of my actions. i just genuinely wonder what about me gets under some peoples skin sm? esp to the point where i was heavily insulted by someone i didnt even know when all i did was be kind to them and show them all of my support and it just baffles me how easily some people can change, people i didnt even know to consider my friend like i dont just wake up and say i hate someone when i dont even know them, yk?