❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

im over here doubting my existence
yesterday I had a fight with my older sister (she's 22 & I'm a teen)
and not like a kiddie, verbal fight
a full-on physical fight
she name called me shit and all (she even called me B**tch)
and I just really asked her the question: why do you hate me so much?
and now the answer and what she said are making me think
what if I'm ruining her life?

but I didn't
all I'm doing is existing
but I cant help but doubt myself BCS of her

but I'm not at fault
she just happens to insult me so much and I'm done just sitting and not saying shit

 

[heartsies]

im over here doubting my existence
yesterday I had a fight with my older sister (she's 22 & I'm a teen)
and not like a kiddie, verbal fight
a full-on physical fight
she name called me shit and all (she even called me B**tch)
and I just really asked her the question: why do you hate me so much?
and now the answer and what she said are making me think
what if I'm ruining her life?

but I didn't
all I'm doing is existing
but I cant help but doubt myself BCS of her

but I'm not at fault
she just happens to insult me so much and I'm done just sitting and not saying shit

u deserve to exist
but damn, i would tell someone about that though, it's not ur fault whatsoever

 

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

u deserve to exist
but damn, i would tell someone about that though, it's not ur fault whatsoever

aww thx
i did tell someone. i told my mum and dad b4 they stepped in the house and later talked it out with my mum
its just my sister really hates me vcs of my aunt since b4 I was born

 

[heartsies]

aww thx
i did tell someone. i told my mum and dad b4 they stepped in the house and later talked it out with my mum
its just my sister really hates me vcs of my aunt since b4 I was born

yw and that's good

 

[ᵇᵒʳᵃʰᵃᵉ_ᴮᵀˢ 樂⟭⟬]

yw and that's good

yeah i tod my mum and she just helped me get it all out
istg I love my mom <3

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

Facts.
Those "jokes" is what brung us down in the first place to make us like this.
and the saying "oh it was js a joke!" Really? Do you think I believe you?

righttt..

 

[Rengya_Utoma]

I feel so empty

 

[heartsies]

I feel like part of my heart has broken off tbh.. I did everything and I messed up because of my overthinking and me being touchy, ugh ppl irl are just so bad sometimes, i want to change but people bring me down sometimes

 

[heartsies]

if she doesn't trust me tbh, i don't trust her either...
like how am i supposed to trust people when they could just try to betray you again..

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

Nah, I got yelled (kinda) at bc i was tired and said i was going to take a nap. Then my mom goes "i don't feel good either but you don't see me laying around" YOU JUST WAS, but i can't lay down when i don't feel good. wow. Then yall wanna bug me when i'm trying to lay down.

 

[iiserene]

my parents would never approve
no matter what the situation was they wouldnt
love is so confusing and hard
idk if I should tell them
but ik if I don't they will figure it out eventually and get even more mad at me
gosh idk-

 

[heartsies]

bro...
i texted you to try and talk to you and you barely say anything??
like quit ghosting me, ik u need space too but i'm trying to include u too..
and stop saying i need to stop all these things (ik i do), but i've done everything for u and u didn't tell me to stop those things earlier and now ur putting it all on me at my worst. ur so fake, idc if u are nice just stop please...
this relationship is even worse than my ex-crush and we are actually kind of talking again which is shocking to me because tbh i miss him, when he was nice he was a really really good person to talk to, but when he wasn't..

 

[heartsies]

i am SO tired of overthinking, but istg if she "exposes" or tells her friends (who are my friends too and she kind of has a better relationship with them and i've been friends with them longer...) i'm gonna give up and move schools because it was her fault too for making me overthink, so she can't make me the bad guy, she did smth too.
and she's proceeding to match pfps with my bff when we were supposed to.
istg i hate fake friends sm i hate school now

 

[izyun]

i dont feel well again.

 

[izyun]

i dont feel well again.

im tempted to do something ill later regret if i get caught.

 

[izyun]

im tempted to do something ill later regret if i get caught.

i can just use my nails
they can do some damage no?

 

[heartsies]

i can just use my nails
they can do some damage no?

noo, please don't do what i think ur gonna do..

 

[izyun]

noo, please don't do what i think ur gonna do..

why

 

[heartsies]

this is probably the last time i'll send one of these since i'm done.
if she gives me a second chance, i'm not giving her a 4th chance..
i alr told her that we should take a break being friends then i gave her another chance and i almost did it again..
so it's like i'm giving her too many chances.

 

[heartsies]

why

i just don't want you to... did smth really bad happen?