i'll try
but it's like my body is used to the small hours of sleep
& it's like a routine @ this point. ig it might explain why i fall asleep often (scratch that; every single day) in math class
If I have to say one piece of advice on this, it's sleep whenever you
can sleep. And with that I mean, if you have the time and ability too. I'm at a point where I am actually afraid of sleeping and wish I could just sleep normally a lot because of something that apparently "runs in the family" (but have no idea what it even is because everyone dismisses it as that whenever I talk about it because it's "normal"), where if I try to sleep, I just can't, because I keep on getting panic attacks, my heart keeps beating like crazy and I shiver, etc, and it is HELL. Often this gets worse when I will get sleep paralysis without even being asleep yet, and even though I know it is nothing bad, it just triggers a panic attack every time and I try to get out of it. Because I am just SO tired this will repeat a lot until I eventually just fall asleep from all the exhaustion.
It comes and goes whenever it wants, sometimes lasts like a week, sometimes a month, sometimes it's gone for months, then suddenly is there again.
Because of that I often don't nearly get enough sleep and it shows through me constantly being tired and exhausted and having little sleep is one of the worst things you can do to your body, even if you think you're "used" to it. It's especially important if you're still growing obviously, but also mentally it's very important. This has been a struggle for years and it was especially awful in school. I'm already struggling with keeping proper attention, but this just made it worse, especially when I run on like 1-2 hours of sleep for weeks and constantly had to fight not falling asleep.
Not sleeping enough isn't cool or funny (although I don't think anyone here has that mindset), and your body does
not get used to it in a normal way, it will "get used" to it in a way that it kind of has to, but it is actually harmful, especially in the long run and will only help you with feeling worse and that's what I don't wish upon anyone. (Just look at Insomnia, it's probably one of the scariest things out there)
Of course if you have trouble sleeping, then you can always try and look for ways to make it easier. For example, when I go through those phases, having any kind of sound or light, just anything that brings me out of silent thoughts can help me (not every time, but at least sometimes) and also some nice music can make it easier.
So yeah, I really hope you can find a way to somehow resolve this, because especially when you're in school, running on little sleep is just making everything harder on you.
