❥--[Mental Health Support Space]

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

I wanna die...I wanna cut myself again...i say i'm okay, but tbh, i am not....I'm not okay, i overthink all the FUCKING TIME....I feel like i'm not good enough for anybody....I wanna just die...

 

[Call_MeRover]

TBH i feel like everythings my fault.Im outta love apparently.YOUR LITERALLY GOING AROUND CALLING PEOPLE BABY BUT NOT ME
and then i help ppl with their problems btu nobody asks,"is alex ok? why is she so mad?

i fucking hate it because i use others ppl problems to distract me from my own

 

[Call_MeRover]

Plz dont..

 

[Call_MeRover]

I try to be nice,"stop being so disgustingly nice"
I try to be vague instead,"be more specific"
STOP TELLLING ME WHAT TO DO>YOU TELL ME TO BE MYSELF BUT THEN JUDGE ME FOR THE FUCKING SHIT I DO 247 LIKE JUST DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME THEN.AND IF YOU JST WANT ME TO CUT LINES DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME THEN
im done im done

 

[ꨄ︎stxrlxreꨄ︎]

i wanna cry so bad....first, you break up with me on our anniversary then act like nothing happened....I wanna fucking cry, but I'll just get called a crybaby....am I a crybaby?...fuck this...I just wanna die...

 

[Call_MeRover]

I lost all my friends..they are all probably talking about me behind my back.most of them cant even stand the sight of me.

 

[knnovation]

I just want to be happy..

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

I feel as if something is wrong with me. Like I am slowly going crazy without anyone knowing. I feel as if I act crazy. Am I crazy?

 

[knnovation]

I lost all my friends..they are all probably talking about me behind my back.most of them cant even stand the sight of me.

I’m still your friend

 

[Call_MeRover]

I’m still your friend

i know.not you.

 

[knnovation]

i know.not you.

I know I say this all the time but if you need to talk, you can talk to me

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

I feel as if something is wrong with me. Like I am slowly going crazy without anyone knowing. I feel as if I act crazy. Am I crazy?

something is wrong me.

 

[ur.local.dino]

i just want to actually be happy, it’s been so long

 

[ur.local.dino]

it hurts seeing them so happy. i talk to them about my issues but they tell me, “you smile all the time, people can’t fake smiles that well and you’ve been smiling like that for years. you can’t possibly be sad.” yeah, it’s been years of me smiling like that because i’ve perfected faking it for that long. i just want a life where i don’t feel constantly trapped.

 

[1fool4you]

yesterday was prolly the worst day ever.

i woke up extremely tired, even though i had a good 8 hours of sleep. my head hurt, my throat was sore, and i felt like absolute garbage. i tired to pick out a cute outfit to boost my confidence, but that didn’t do shit lmao. i had to force myself to pack lunch so my mom doesn’t get suspicious and notice i’ve been starving myself. and on top of that, i managed to get myself into a wave of sadness. and i didn’t even get to school yet.
school was school. there was only one more day until spring break so i mainly zoned out. but the only thing i was looking forward to was lunch. cause i can talk to my friend and get me out of my manic state temporarily. but she wasn’t there today, so i had to sit awkwardly and daydream, which made a sadness wave come again. i tried to eat my packed lunch, but i felt so bad eating it. i wanted to throw it all up. less food, less weight, right??
i felt a little better, cause i had no schoolwork and could just do whatever. but my mom had to fucking ruin it.
when we were abt to head to bed, she went through my wallet, and took all my money. i wanted it back cause like, she didnt say any reason why she needs it, and she was smiling so i thought she was joking. she was fucking taking my money. the money i worked hard for, for no reason. i playfully tried to take the money back, but she got mad, even though we were both laughing/play fighting?? she started gaslighting me, calling me selfish and disgusting. i was so confused. she still didnt give me a reason why she took it. so she got mad at me for wanting my money back, even though there was once again no reason why she took it.
fucking made me cry myself to sleep. she always makes herself the victim. on top of that, she got mad at my little sister (idek why) and called her trash. shes autistic, and she gets hurt/emotional easily. im pretty sure she hit her as well. she was literally crying, and i couldnt do anything to help her.

im so fucking done with my parents bs. im fighting back the urge to self harm again. ive been isolating from my friends, both irl and online. i try to act strong in front of everyone, but i rlly need a hug. i feel so raw and numb. the sadness waves are more frequent and longer. they hurt more too. every day feels the same. i just want to stop feeling these emotions.

 

[ITSJUST_👹✨VEGAS✨👹]

ok so basically I’m gonna get down and dirty about what I feel. Sometimes I think I don’t look bad but I actually look like shit. and I know I look like shit, but I don’t do anything about it cause I never seem to make myself look good. I always change my mind about things, like il say I will clean my room. I never finish and always end up just making it worse. and why am I not a good gf. Like I treat @Harleyquinfan more like a friend than a gf. and it’s like I never even talked to her before she even addressed the fact that I was just checking up on her. I need to do better. I want to do better. I DONT wanna feel like this. is something wrong with me? no one knows I’m bi Besides my uncle. He doesn’t even know I have a girl friend. He’s GAY!!!!!! That’s someone I can relate to. I know I will be in big trouble if I tell my grandmother. I could possibly be kicked out. Or not. But still, she will most likely kick me out. I’ll be kicked out at age ** for being bi. I’m hoping that I can make it through all stress, bc at this age, I know that I should not be feeling like this. Because this is not normal.

 

[Harleyquinfan]

ok so basically I’m gonna get down and dirty about what I feel. Sometimes I think I don’t look bad but I actually look like shit. and I know I look like shit, but I don’t do anything about it cause I never seem to make myself look good. I always change my mind about things, like il say I will clean my room. I never finish and always end up just making it worse. and why am I not a good gf. Like I treat @Harleyquinfan more like a friend than a gf. and it’s like I never even talked to her before she even addressed the fact that I was just checking up on her. I need to do better. I want to do better. I DONT wanna feel like this. is something wrong with me? no one knows I’m bi Besides my uncle. He doesn’t even know I have a girl friend. He’s GAY!!!!!! That’s someone I can relate to. I know I will be in big trouble if I tell my grandmother. I could possibly be kicked out. Or not. But still, she will most likely kick me out. I’ll be kicked out at age ** for being bi. I’m hoping that I can make it through all stress, bc at this age, I know that I should not be feeling like this. Because this is not normal.

baby its ok i don't blame you nor am i upset at you ok? I'll love you regardless

 

[Call_MeRover]

I hope my life gets better.rn im in school and every found my tiktok Kpop account and yt channel.now theyre constantly messaging me and harrassing me and getting in my space.Being mixed and liking Kpop is hard.i have people who help but when theyre not here i feel like shit.today i feel like shit because my pants didnt fit and i felt like a total pig so i had to wear sweatpants

 

[knnovation]

I am struggling so hard right now but I can’t show emotion or everyone will worry…I just have to force a smile

 

[Rengya_Utoma]

I am struggling so hard right now but I can’t show emotion or everyone will worry…I just have to force a smile

same, I'm at my breaking point. It's live or die rn, and I'm afraid I might choose death even though I fear death.