My life is fucked I'm literally going back to who I was 3 years ago. I barely have the energy to take care of myself, it just feels like I have a ton of weight on my shoulders and nothing can be done about it. Like my dad is cussing me out over the phone daily because I want to stay with my mom and he can't get taxes out of me anymore and cussing out my mom... He's the reason I got depression and anxiety. It just makes me wanna kms so bad. I barely have enough energy to brush my teeth or clean my room and my mom barely makes it better shes always saying how I eat up all the food, saying I'm nothing but a waste of space and a lazy son of b**ch.. like you know I have all this mental stuff going on and you still say this and wonder why I cry at night. My dad and my grandma are the reason I lost so much weight since they always said "You should eat less Sariah (my cousin) isn't that big" that lit made me not eat almost last school years summer break so I drastically dropped from 168 to 130 probably lower now.