"nostalgia haze" (song) (a slow/er song)
tw: mentions of [email protected] thoughts
[chorus] They say "I wanna go back to the good old days"
"Where all we did was run and play"
But that's not really what I'd say
Cuz I was nothing but miserable in those days
They say "I wanna go back to the good old days"
Cuz they're all stuck in nostalgia haze
But I've got a different view of those times
Cuz they were the worst ones in my life
[hook] La, la-la-la-la-la, la la, la-la-la-la-la, la la
[verse 1] Playing games on the playground
I'm the odd one out
And I pray to god: let the coach pick teams
Cuz I can't be picked last again
Elementary days, best we'll have
But I don't really agree with that
They say those were the simple days
But for me it wasn't that way
I didn't know left from right, up from down
Let all the other kids push me around
[pre-chorus] But life was good, yeah life was easy
If you were an it-kid, a super special chosen one
But unlucky me, cuz I was not
I'll be alright, but I got scars, yet still-
[chorus]
[hook]
[verse 2] And you can call me crazy, if you want to
But I didn't live a life like you (like you)
I was an outcast, a social reject
I had no friends, every day sinking lower
How could a child so young become so ensnared by depression
That they wanna take their own life?
But I'm not really surprised by the stories on the news, cuz
Once upon a time ago, I was in their shoes
[pre-chorus]
[chrous]
[hook]
[verse 3, a rap] 3rd grade, wanted to take my own life
Couldn't live with all the chaos and strife
But fear held me back
Would the other side be in lack?
I knew how I'd do it, just had to push through it
Shout out, I didn't do it
But I was close to it
I felt so lonely
[spoken line] I was all alone. [end spoken line]
Felt so sad, they all said too bad
I sought no help, I was livin' in Hell
But I pretended that ev'rything was well
No, I would never tell
Just how bad I was doin'
(But maybe~) Maybe my nostalgia haze makes me see things in a bad way
[chorus]
[outro] Oh~, nostalgia haze