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i need to start eating again
90 pounds is not good
90 pounds is not good
everytime i eat, i wanna throw up
i hate this so fucking much
i'm confused. sometimes my mother calls me fat and tells me to diet and shit then at other times she comes to me saying i'm too skinny and that i need to eat more. that i'm underweight. like pick one. it's annoying and confusing when u say i'm both. i'm losing weight and u still call me fat. i basically bones now and u still call me fat. like lady tf. it's annoying leave me in peace. let me live my damn life. i hate eating now cause i think i'm fat even if i'm not, i feel like throwing up when i eat or when i'm not even eating.
i fucking hate this
i hate the fact that its okay for adults to push me around because ima teenager but whenever I "argue" or "talk back" I'm the problem. always saying "I love you" "your my daughter" "I wanna help you" but I've literally seen text messages of you saying you cant wait to get "rid" of me like I'm some fucking pest... once I leave this shit hole ya'll will realise how much I sacrificed and did at this house for yall.. AND IVE BEEN DOIN THIS SHIT FOR 10 YEARS IS INSANE.. you wanna be my mom so fucking bad but when I call out your flaws n shi as a "mother" you get pissed and I'm the horrible kid whos ruining everyone's lives.. like yall so fucking quick to blame shit on someone else who you think is lower than yall.. pmtfo yall needa get a fucking hobby.. rather than hoeing around and having sex w random guys yall met on facebook.. smoking and drinking all day.. like not even 4 hours ago did I carry your ADULT best friend up a flight of stairs bc she was too drunk to walk by herself..
also yall be so fuckin quick to hand me YOUR baby that YOU had on ACCIDENT because YOUR A HOE.. no one else is gonna say it bc "your so perfect" but your really not bro... like your insecure and need male validation to feel sane bc if you don't you'll probably go back to drugs... like bsffr.. GROWN ADULTS coming at a SIXTEEN year old is wiilddd.. I'm so fucking disappointed in this so called "family"... I'm so sick and tired of cleaning up yalls shit.. like I'm literally babysitting 40 year old women bc they so fucking delusional...
wanna talk about it?
nah its alr u prolly got ur own problems to worry/stress abt
ima thug it out.. (no im not) but thanks tho !
okiieenah its alr u prolly got ur own problems to worry/stress abt
ima thug it out.. (no im not) but thanks tho !
i'm so close to relapsing again i can't fucking do this
i hate that she treats me like this
i hate that she treats me like this
im tired of trying to be strong
how tf u gon come back to the house and start bitchin about how you apparently clean your house and do all this shit but as soon as you get home you drink and smoke whilst I and your sister tend to the kids and the house ?! and then you get mad bc my sisters don't tell you shit, they see me as more of a mom than you, they trust me, they listen to me, and they rely more on me than you ? it's giving.. narcissistic, manipulative, insecure.. if you wanna be our 'mom' so fucking bad maybe you should start actin like it because there ain't no way were staying here after were all of age..
if or when i try agn ts better fucking work..
im actually so close to relapsing.. but not after 7 months of being clean and sober.. I've been doing so well, I don't want to disappoint my little sister agn..
do want to talk? i'm happy to listen
i need to stop eating... i look so fat.. I've gained more weight I can tell.. everyone can tell.. everyone stares.. they all do. because who tf wants to see a fat girl at 6 am in the morning.. I'm so sick and tired of myself.. i wish I could just cut it all off.. i literally like actually think about doing it sometimes.. just cutting everything off..
nono its ok dw abt it.. itll pass ! :]
if u say so, but if u ever need to talk it out, my dms are always open
tysm !